TwiLight!

Zomg! Wym's viruses are seriously contagious D;
First D.Gray Man....
Now TwiLight♥ !! KY-AA!
Its really a great book! xD
Makes u wanna flip the pages after reading the summary ;X

Their vocab is really EXCELLENT! [I know most books are]
Such grand descriptions *0*
Such exagerations that make u nod ur head!
ESPECIALLY ADJECTIVES USED TO DESCRIBE....
Wym will use a loud speaker right now...
E-D-W-A-R-D C-U-L-L-E-N
L-O-L!~

Fantastic book na! x_o I seriously recommend ;X
Like they say.. to determine whether a book is worth reading or not!
all you gotta do is keep your ears open !
to hear compliments of certain books frm book haters (me)
LIKE TWILIGHT!!!!!! ♥♥♥

Made up tis theory while chatting xD
-You can't buy time with money-
-But you lose money with time-

this world speaks the most disjustice T_T
Most would agree ;X

Anyway, pause on the drawings... they'll come back soon!
School reopen! I'll have tons'a time for drawing! xD
POP rehearsal tomorrow! Had an unpleasant "reunion" with
my squad mates todae ~.~" Why are the non-comp(s) so
UNWANTED ?

Loveya! ;)

Whew, finally uploaded tis pic.

Now I don't owe Wym anything ;D

Loveya! ;)

Ahh Finally able to upload the coloured fanart =.=" After so many days of failed attempts~ anyway~ for people who haven't seen my maplestory FanArt before, here it is ! xD This is the coloured one, but I can bravely say it doesn't turn out as well as my original coloured piece.. scans are always.. lousier...?

Haha~ The uncoloured one !!! I LOVE IT ALL SO MUCH! XD Don't even bother to guess how long I took to draw and colour and complete this piece ~_~" aww~ m0ii cargo plushie T_T ~

I'm gonna upload the girl&boy kid love pic soon xD

Its a drawing of cuz... owed [Wym] wayyy~ too longgg ..

I'm drawing more nowadays;

trying to complete some coloured master pieces ;/

Goodluck to me! xD

School's reopening in like, 9 days...

be prepared for yeR worst nightmares xD

Look forward to more drawings~~~ *-*

Loveya! ;)

Basic NCO camp

Phew.. it's been 3 days since I last been online eh?
kaoo... and this time, after camp I seriously slept for the
longest time in my life! I slept from 2pm on Monday till 8am
on Tuesday, cool right? 18 hrs lmao.
This camp has been a horrible/impactful experience for me...
seriously X_X"

Well.. on the first day, we went to a ultra muddy field to pitch
this simple tent called ... (shit forgot lmao) All of us got muddy from
top to toe, and whilst getting scolded and punished by the instructors
and officers every single minute.
After that, we had lunch, and then~ WE WENT ON THIS WONDERFULLY
UNIMAGINABLE HORRIBLY NAUSEATING HIKE.

12 hour hike.
First, we travelled from JurongVille secondary to Bukit timah Hill (top)
That's just like... before boon lay to after queens way? (just imagine)
AND BACK to JurongVille (just imagine)
And plus, it was raining heavily on our way up to the top of the hill and on
the way down, it was just downright horrible.. trust me. Our shoes were
like puddles of dirty muddy water with sticks, leaves and other disgusting
substance for us to step on and walk on.
Through the forest late at night, I didn't dare to look around me...
I scared I see something I shouldn't see! LMAO!~

Well.. the hike, although it completely sucks, it was an important experience
for me, I can bet that not many have the chance to experience this kind of
hike even in their lifetime.

By the time we took off our shoes
my toes were like soggy, wrinkled, drenched, smelly, uncomfortable and black (seriously)
HORRIBLE SIA!
thank goodness, the instructors knew of our predicament and granted us a 1-hr bathing time!
;D wee~

On the second day, there were telematches and games, really tiring and fun ones XD
there was one whereby all of the platoon mates had to get onto 5-7 chairs
and move the chairs all the way to the front until we reached the finishing line~
yea, we had to keep our balance while moving the chairs one by one from back to front~
then the people threw flour and water on us TT_TT
yea.. dough-ish T_T

We did field cooking and it was a cool experience, I overcame my fear of fire!
WOOPIEE~

From 6pm till the end of camp the next day, I was chosen to be the course In-charge
The highest position for the day.
The highest risk of getting a heart seizure for the day.
I keep getting scolded, punished severely...
But seriously saying, I'm very very very proud of myself
and very very very thankful for the chance to be course In-Charge~
My PS told me I did really really well...
I shouted till I lost my voice,
Sirs were happy because I could take the initiative to do alot of things on my own
to prevent the whole course from getting scolded and punished.

My chance of getting a trophy after camp is almost absolute!
WAAHOOO!!! XD

It was reallllllllliiiieeeeeeeeeee
a damn daMN
tiring camp.

But I'm still thankful for the experience.
Going to you sheng's house this wednesday~
CELEBRATE THE END OF CAMP
AND BNCO THEORY COURSE!!!

Short note for all camp-ians!
:: Do not be sad it happened, Be HAPPY that its over! ::

HORROR! BOOO!

Its so fun posting at 12 midnight ;x
Maybe its coz when ya' look outta the window
you hope u'd see a head hang down or smth (lmao)

anyway~ I'm so jealous.. someone turned 18....
I wanna drink wine
I wanna watch M18 horror movies
I wanna be 3 years away from adulthood
or not.
LOL.

Kaooo~~ is it my imagination or...
maplestory is dominating my life again?!
God.. I dunwanna b drifting away frm SP
nono
never baby.
Ahh... i just have to spend more time on SP!
Oh yah, KT came back to me again today
Its strange? Just about 6 months ago...
I told him to stop waiting for me
Ah well,
there are still persistent idiots existing...
its strange how someone doesn't/does change his/her heart over night
its scary when it happens ._.

Anyw i SERIOUSLY suspect smth is going on--
between 2 people HO-HO ^^"
nvm.. dunwanna even think about it LOL!
Going to plae with water at fren's swimming pool tmr~
hope its fun ;x
XYXY! we're watching golden compass on thurs!
WOOTZ0RX!

zhuzhu-me-xy-far nor {I hope we stay this way forever)
xy&mE-f0r3v3r b3sT fr3Nz

loveya! ;)

3rd job adv!

Lmao!!! I'm so dAMN happy today! xD Altough I wasted 3 hrs of my life juz painting our platoon camp flag T.T" NVM! the good part is coming~ lmao xD

WOOTS! I'm sooo DAMN happy ok? Finally.. finally I BECAME A HERMIT LOL! This was during the entrance to dark lord's clone (lmao for ppl who know maplestory xD) kaooo~~~

Yeah baby~ he's killed in under 2 minutes ;P Pure-ness of low dex sin~ YEAH! I was sooo out-of-this-world when I finished killing the clone and 2 tauromacis, so darn easy! 3rd job advancement is sooo much cooler than 2nd job advancement LMAO! XD WOOOTS ZOMG XD

Blarh x_o" I know larh.. the dmg is weak... can't help it also... lvl 1 shadow partner only !!! Still so glad.. first time I get to see that shadow behind me *0*"

I could do 3000 at the bottom damages! I swear I saw !! T_T"

Yah.. this is my baobei's character -> sharnii ! xD So damn chio la... the blizzard 4th job skill *0* she's currently 13X nao... she levels like siao X_X" (oh, this is delphinus btw xD) so chio....... damn beautiful.... 30000+ damage.. god...

WAAAAHOOO!!! I'M FINALLLLIIIIEE A HERMIT! I'm soo gonna be damn serious about mapling nao ;X hahaha~ Sry sp, you're temporarily abandoned LOL! 3rd job 3rd job 3rd job *_* GAHH! I can't believe it LMAO!!!

Nursing exam coming soon~ gah.. better start muggin' tmr~ or else I cnt garantee a good result x_x" gambatte all venus-ians! (LOL, I'M SO SELFISH) ;P

Loveya! ;)

quote from my own blog

Haha... Have been feeling realllie- retarded these days xD Guess its time to shoot out some of the hot gas ;X (LOL) Here's a sweet post from my personal blog ;D Don't be too affected by it though, its something I typed out of anger ^^

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So.. that's all you tell me...
'we're not related anymore'
'don't be concerned of my private life anymore'

you say that...
of course you can say that...

It doesn't matter to me anymore too
Because of a certain someone or something
I get taken on for it.

Yo
Dude,
I ain't toy

So what?
She's not even worth your heart
You were stupid not to let go,
You're hurt...
No one cares...
I've stuck by your side,
selfishly denying the feelings of my own heart,

staying there
right
beside
you
all the time...
and this is what I get rewarded with?

Thank you very much...
Now I finally see
True selfishness
True Betrayal
True blindness...

I was nothing to you, nothing at all.
I get hurt for everything that happens
whether its a smile
or a sorrow coming from you...

I'm sick of it...
I don't want anymore of this shit
I'm getting out of your life

Because to me,
its what you're telling me.

You
Don't
Need
Me.

Thanks alot, for breaking my heart all this months.

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yay~ Now I have a meaningful "Joke-sorta-thing" to share with everyone xD I heard this during my NCO course yesterdae, sorta to lighten stuff up! xD
Moral : Any arse hole can be a leader.

One day, the different body parts held a meeting and came together to decide which body part should be the leader xD
The brain said, "I should be the leader, because I do all the thinking, I control everything, I am the central, without me, nothing can function."
And so, The eyes said, "I should be the leader! I can foresee, I have foresight, I am the direction, without me, there is no goal to reach, nowhere to go."
The legs said, "No! I should be the leader! Without me, there is no movement, we'll all remain bound and imobile, without support and guidance from me, nothing works right."
And so, the other body parts came up with different reasons why they should be the leader.
And...
The arse hole(anus) popped out and said, "I should be the leader! ;D"
The others discussed for a short moment and decided to kick the arse hole out of the meeting.
The arse hole grew red with anger, and he closed up and decided not to function at all.
After 3 days,
The brain went out of control, it couldn't even think straight.
The eyes became teary and blurred, the foresight was screwed.
The legs became jelli-fied and unable to move.

Soon, they started to beg the arse hole to start working.
And they made him the leader.

Moral : Any arse hole can be a leader, as long as you're willing to take extra responsibilities!
It doesn't matter if you're not smart, you don't have foresight or you're physically unstable, all it matters is effort from an individual! Anyone can lead! ;D

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Wow, its the first time blood rushed to my head faster than usual xD
I didn't know 'thinking-so-much' was such a terrible feeling xD
I shall remain optimistic! OPTIMISTIC TILL THE VERY END!
MUAH-HA-HA-HA-HA (siao ar)

Anyway~ Can't tell if my heart's lightened or burden-ed xD

Short note from author :
I refuse to believe up till this day,
the thing you've been feeling,
is known as love.

harh, coz its just too weak baby
It's so damn weak.
Not with this recent girl,
but with the one in the past.

It's so weak
So weak...
I feel sorry for her.

Love isn't a child kind of feeling.
It lasts as long as
the feeling of rejection.-

I know what you're thinking,
I don't know anything,
because I don't know what's love, (oh yeah?)
Yeah,
I really
don't...
and I don't want to,
I'm so young ;D I dunwanna waste my youth
Not like most people do.
harh- ^^

I did realise, 'WHAT A FOOL I WAS! XD'
Successfully tormented my own heart
Oh yeah? big eh?
you both wanna quit chocfudge?
sure thing,
screw this, I'm being screwed because of two people xD
and the stuff they tell each other (yea) ;X
woohoo~ ecstasy!
GOODBYE SP ;D

-just leave me alone-
-I've been had and hurt enough-
-If only onions grew on trees-

I've cried till I'm all dried up, I've thought till I'm brain dead.
There was never that someone I could share my burdens with, no-one out there treats me seriously enough as a friend. It's so unfair... I'm always there for others, yet my heart is the only thing that really breaks.

-end- ^^

3-day-blog-post

I'm gonna write about what happened in the past 3 days~ Monday till Today! (Wednesday) anyway~ I shall begin, with MONDAY! XD The realllie funny day ;X

Wym and Fire discussing girls stuff reallly seriously >O (I made this up) They look really compatible as good friends huh? xD they even wore the bag the same way! xD I dare not take their faces for fear my insurance might not cover up for my parents losses if anything unfortunate were to happen to me T_T

wooosh~ I took this while running/walking xD They're always walking together!! Just like great friends would *_* After looking at this scene, I feel like crying T_T Fuzzy image ;X

ZOMG, THIS IS ONE AMAZING PICTURE I TELL YOU. I have NO-IDEA-WHATSOEVER as to why this DUDE is grinning... its abit scary ROFL.... He knew I was taking his picture but he just looked away and... AND.. SMILED? OMG WHAT COULD THAT MEAN? O.O! anyway~ this is my ah gong lo ;P

Two really serious guys, emo-ing together on the MRT train in broad daylight~ (lmao) to the left is ah gong and to the right is my brother xD seriously look like they're emo-ing... maybe they got tons of things to say to each other but.. BUT.. OK LA FINE! FINE LA! I KNOW I WAS AN EXTRA.. SORRY LO ZZZ... DAMN! T_T

Finally~ on till tues ;X kekekeX... yay~ we made cheese PUDDING! XD (OMG! ;) SORRY WYM, I SAID CHEESE CAKE LOL...) anyway~ I helped to press the biscuit at the bottom of the pudding and mixed some of the cheese mixture~ it was messy/fun/cool/interesting, I learn pretty much about baking and the equipment used for baking in this simple pudding making lesson xD

see... The biscuit at the bottom is pressed by me! REALLY NEAT RIGHT? ;D (FINE LA, FOR THOSE SADDISTS OUT THERE, I KNOW LA, VERY UGLY LA... FINE LA ZZZZ.. DUNNID SECRETLY THINK IN YOUR HEART RIGHT.. ZZZ.. YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN ME MEH? ZZZ...) sorry o... sounded abit harsh in my thoughts T_T

Fruit salad~ yummy yummy~ (lmao) anyway~ this is the top view of our final product! neat huh? xD Its such a beautiful~ SUCH A BEAUTIFUL........ pud-dingggg YEAH!

This is really delicious believe me man! xD (esp the biscuit at the bottom cos I did most of the work there) Its so true, the food you make always tastes really good T_T

Finally~ LAST BUT NOT LEAST! the 3rd day! xD (wednesday) daddy's birthday~ weeees~ My cute and chubby daddy~ so kawaii right? sometimes I wonder if I've fallen for my dad aiks~ T_T No one can replace my daddy *0* HAPPY BIRTHDAE DADDY! XD He's 50 lmao, old man ;X SSSHHHHH!!!!

Aw~ lovely couple huh? ;X the ice cream is gorgeous right? *0* well~ This is from swensen's, quite obvious by now T_T" the malt ice cream is seriously fabulous! MUST TRY!

Its daddy's birthdae but I just can't help it! I made him buy these for me LOL!! The clover leaf in the earring is a real clover leaf! Its a damn cool shop, they sell these heart/apple/weird shaped chains that have a clover leaf in each of it, its really really sweet and beautiful! Expensive because clover can't be found in Singapore X_X I Love you daddy! I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH! ! !

Arh well~ Course Platoon meeting tomorrow~ watching Enchanted for the second time T_T wym~ watching movies continuously is contagious! (LOL) [ Wymzic ] <-- PFFT.. PFFT!!! ;X I might just burst from holding in all this laughter! T_T

Loveya! ;)

Pressies!

Lol~ Went out shopping with Ailing today! She's crazy lah... x_o" she bought dunno how many nail polish.. even I was shocked!!

Anyway~ This is what I bought today! ;3 Anyway I wanna apologise to someone for lying before he/she finds out about the lie xD Don't be deceived by these plushies' looks! They're damn ex larh x_x" I got one from Lot 1 shopping mall and 1 from West Mall xD

And zomg! Zero guessed that this was a real puppy LOL!!! Well~ too bad Its a fake ;X Its damn nice to touch ok! Although just thinking about the price makes my heart break TT___TT"

Wee~ this is due to extreme bo-liao-ness, me and Ailing sat outside the Fuji Ice Palace in JEC and stared at people ice-skating HAHA! XD We saw... 3 no, 4 professional skaters xD Then got one guy.. act cool lo~ he chiong to the wall den wanna turn tt time, he crash to the wall and fall down on his butt! HAHAHA~~ I'm evil larh~ I laughed damn loud ;x

Woo~ ME and AILING~ ^_^ v

Spendtrift spendtrift~ ;X I got these necklaces on Monday~` Nt vry ex though~ Just really pretty and can fit together with alot of my clothes~ xP

And Lmao~ I can't believe I'm chionging maple now xP { HoneyPieX }

Monday - chiong-ed 56 - 57

Tuesday - chiong-ed 57 - 58

Wednesday - chiong-ed 58 - 60

Thursday (Today) - chiong-ed 60 - 61

Loveya! ;)

DONUTS!

Woahh~ Im posting pretty often nowadays! xD Anyway~ Let's start

Rofl! These are sure weird looking donuts... My parents bought them home for us to try it out. Pretty nice price S$1.20 each only! Sure looks yummy! the choc looks scari-ly fattish though T_T

I opened them up! $#@!! I wanna eat!! ZOMFG!!! temptation! xD Anyway I ate it alrdy LOL, its darn nice! cheese... choc... frozen sugar.. tons of flavours! O.O"

Lmao~~ This is how thick the ppcs me and my brother spent on together! Cool eh? Top two cards is S$30 each LMAO!

Lay on the bed~~~ lalala~ Cash spammers! xD

Anyway~ Time for bed.. quite late liaoX ;X

Loveya! ;)

Photo fun?

Yoz! Just finished doing my tooop-id mum's hmwk *_* Finalli haf some time to myself! ~~
These photos are all taken like.. 1 or 2 months back!! xD I must have changed alot since then @.@"

Anyway~ This is Lydia, Ailing and Me respectively... Well.. one of the last photos we took together before school closed x_x" Man I miss 2A-ttitude-d already!! Dream and dream and dream... 2A will nvr come back! D; I wanna turn back time!!

AND LOL $#@!! Of cos!! That old man and old woman and dumb boy ain't me! D; Of cuz they ain't me! I'm so kawaii !!! O.O (Thick-skinned) Anyway.. quite obvious though.. My dad, mummy and Bro~ They're eating h..h...h...? THE "H" BRANDED ICE CREAM LAH AIYA! Forgot x_x" That small pathetic cup.. guess how much? Yes~ S$9.50~~ Retarded #_#" Its the ice cream I resisted oso~~

I wanna be able to eat ice cream SOB! 3 more KG to go~ That'll take forever! It's so hard to lose weight now! TT_TT NVM! GAMBATTE!

Lmao~~ I started friendster I dunno why xD Maybe under peer influence? LMAO.. The so-left-out ppl are starting frenster lmao~~ (Me) Okay~ Hope I'll find photos to upload soon x_0"

Loveya! ;)

Changed BlogSkin

Yays~ Haha, finally found a suitable blog skin to change it to xD
Anyways... These weekends I'll be pretty busy-
Not much time to play/exercise on weekends!-
Dumb NCO course!
That's why I hate being in UG !!

Anyway-
Guess I'll just have to enjoy myself to the fullest-
on weekdays-
Looking forward to the guild meeting with everyone!
Anyone know of the movie the game plan?
I'm planning on watching it though xD

Someone refuses to accept the gift I bought!-
$#@!
So mean ...
emo-ed T-O-D-A-Y (since it's midnight)
somemore !
Chased me away T_T

I'm starting to exercise self-control on the vulgarities!-
Weee-!!
-Off to School-

Loveya! ;)

Thinking back?

I've never reminisced but now I shall.
-Hmm... I wonder how long has it been since I started to live cyber-wise?
Pretty long I guess, Probably much longer than anyone would guess.

MapleStory
QQ Kor - You're the first mapleSEA buddy I made. Without you, I would
have never met Snow Jie... And we wouldn't be such close friends now.
I was begging people to help me hunt leaves, who knew? Just by offering a
mere help you became a dear friend. You changed my life.
Vulgar - Ha.. Sometimes I'm so glad you don't know my blog. You're the
first guy I fell for online.(Unfortunately?) I forgot how I met you, it has
been 2 years+ and I'll remember you always.
SnowAngel - My precious Snow Jie. You're my very first online sister
together with AngelGirl. The memories we shared, those I'll never forget.
Being able to stay together so long, I can straightly say, I really love you.
LaoShuAiDaMe - I will never forget you. You cheered me up so many times
although you are "xiao pi qi"

SurvivalProject
[Aranged in order of who I met first]
Chienz - The second Jie I ever made! This girl I must say, she is one incredible
being xD You'll never believe that such a person exists! She can comfort you so
damn well when she's really suffering deep inside. She never complains, she never
upsets anyone, just by chatting with her, your day completely blooms! (Gong,
don't kill me, I can understand why you like her =x) Oh god, I don't know how
to type out all her good qualities, she's probably someone I would fall in love with
at first sight! @_@" I treated her as a role model, my idol? Being able to call her
"Jie" is such an honour omg! Suki daiyo!!! Nothing vulgar or bad ever comes out
of her mouth! She's such a nice person! She doesn't side with anyone and when
she feels someone is wrong, she will talk it out nicely. She doesn't cry out in front
of anyone and makes sure she is of help but not nuisance to anyone. Although
noone can ever compare to Snow Jie, this is someone I can also say I love alot.
Without her, my life wouldn't be half as beautiful.

DeathTanker - Ang Gong Kia (statue) was what I first called you, it changed
to Ah gong and then GonG, lmao.. I don't know why. The first time I met you,
I must say I'm pretty shocked! Because in comparison to my 1 year+ experience
with you, you are never the type that would be such good friends with someone
so much younger than you! I met you together with Fire, I believe is your very
first SP best fren? xD In MSP, I had no idea what happened to the relationship
between you guys, and I seriously thought I was the one who broke you two
apart, even though I know that may not be true, but I still feel bad even today.
You guys were once so close, ever since I added you two to buddy, You two started
drifting further and further apart! Sob... I befriended you in a racing game, that
I will never forget. My bro, you, fire and chienz, we used to race together as a team
so darn-it-often baby! I miss those old days, I seriously do. You supported my guild,
you lent me your set, even though at that time I was a complete stranger. I thought
to myself : This must be the best friend anyone would want! Well, for the first time
You allowed me to understand what is mutual trust between two friends. Yep, you
guessed it, I was really touched ^^ There's no need to apologise, the fond-est of
memories, you were the one who gave them to me. You are really a BEST FRIEND !
Thanks for everything! And, I believe I have more to thank you for than you do.

FireXElement - My wonderful friend together with Death! Yea, As i mentioned, I
met the two of you at the same time and befriended you both at the same time! To be
frank, Maybe it was because I was still childish in the head but, I never tried to want
to understand you in MSP... Everytime you felt left out, this selfish me would treat it
as if its nothing important. You supported chocfudge with me... DAISUKI DESU!! It
was until nearly the closure of MSP that made me realise, I haven't put in enough
effort as a leader of ChocFudge. A guild of 60 over members. How successful... if it
weren't for your help, I would never have felt such glory. You are my precious mei, you'll
forever be! The first time I met you in real life, I thought to myself, yep! You're the kind
of friend I would want. Your smile never fades like mine! And you are serious when it
comes to friends. And I'll remember, you kept telling me how noob you were, which I
strongly feel against apparently x.x Whether a person is pro or not, does not depend on
the outward performance, it depends on your attitude towards everything, for me, a
person who is pro, does not own at death match or quest, a person who is pro is simply
someone who don't exist. For me Pro means perfection. No one is Pro.^^ And there's no
such thing as being a noob. Thank you mei, you're exceptionally special to me, Once again
the same thing as snow jie. I love you. Not ONLY because you're sexy. ^^

Wymzic - Blood-shared lover! zomfglajskkas AHHH!! KY-AA!! I still remember. You
were a star 3 ranked non-prem shamoo in the rocky wind community! You were
completely cornered and crying out loud when we forced you into joining ChocFudge.
I was shocked when you told me your age... O_O I would have guessed 15 or 16.
You're a really faithful person I must say. You are always true to your friends and
yourself. And you're darn it true to ChocFudge ! Not a guild-hopper, you value close
buddies more than anything else! You forgive easily, you're always smiling, you're a realllli-
precious friend! I love you so much! SO MUCH.. SO MUCH!! Like I said before, I cannot
point out a single weak/bad quality in you. You're much much too perfect x_o" I wonder
why You ain't my mei? That's probably cos I refuse to acknowledge the fact that you're
younger than me T_T You sound so much grown-up and more adult-like than me! I mean
so much--- I LOVE YOU!


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It's not like me to post at midnight @_@" Maybe it's just like me to do so?
Anyway for a certain someone out there, mixed feelings? Haven't been completely freed?
This quote is from Romeo x Juliet.
---
"Sadness, Hatred, pain and sorrow, these can be overcome by one emotion.. That is
L-O-V-E"

To love is not a mistake. To once been in love is a valuable experience. Do not regret
doing so, pain, sorrow and disappointment lasts as long as love does.

It is wise to choose this emotion above all. ^^

issit really my fault?

I agree that semester one I didn't put in my all into my studies... I agree that my result brought nth but disappointment to my parents... as the year passes... I know myself.. I work harder and harder.. wherever I don't understand I consult people... People that are willing to help a weakling like me.... but so what? Once somebody cannot cope with it... It's hard to change that fact... On the outside, I did screw my exams? So what? All you adults ask me is to reflect upon my MISTAKES, was it because I played too much computer? Was it because I didn't feel like studying?

How I wish right now... Someone else... even if its my brother who can do nothing to change my results... Someone would take the time and even bother to ask me... "Did you try your best?" That is the only true way I can understand the big mistake I've made and Change myself from there... what's the point of being to pessimistic about my results? I still have to reflect upon and change for the better! Why won't anyone ask me that? Why? How can I change my studying attitude if its really THAT BAD into someone better, if no one out there will ask me whether I've done my best in a nice and caring tone. Nobody really understands me out there...

Mum always thinks I play too much.. I don't take my studies seriously.. that's how I ended up screwed.. but why did I get screwed? It's because no one ever said anything in a kind way that will really affect me a great deal and decide to really change for the better... Even right now as I'm crying in hyperventilation mode... all you do is say "Why're you crying now? You know best yourself you play too much!" I can't take it anymore... Why do you never say what I want you to say? "Have you tried your best?" WHY?

This is the sccond time I've been so close to wanting to end everything.. to just end my life and hope that God will give me a second chance to change everything...

Is 2.5 that bad? I don't think so... what is wrong with me and you? Frankly speaking, I do not know...

I don't want to screw it myself... I know I've done my best for E.O.Ys... thats all that matters to me now.. Nothing else matters anymore. Somehow I'm greatful to Grace... she got 2.4 yet she's still optimistic about it... her mother and brother and everyone else understands her.. I'm so damn jealous.... I don't know how much longer I can survive in such a corrupted world.. nothing ever turns out the way I want them to... Such precious words I want to hear... Maybe they'll never come out of the people I wish for to say them...

No matter how great my achievements.. as long as I'm not around the top.. she'll never be satisfied.. who says I'm not disappointed with my results? Why am I crying? The reason is so damn obvious...

I HATE my results.. U know very well I hate them more than you...

If People I trust so much can't even trust me.. I don't know how I'm gonna survive this anymore...

Gee.. I wanted so much to prove myself to them of my determination.. but my results and motivation completely destroyed me...

Oh man.. I wanna die.

Class photo of 2A (2007)

Hais! So soon.. it's gonna be the end of Class 2A o'2007! T_T" I'm starting to miss the things we've done together for the past few years alrdy! xD

Hais.. this is probably the 2nd last photo we'll be taking together! Hopefully we'll take one more during the class chalet in Dec.. T___T" Ahh! Sec 3 next year and we'll be separated.. will the bond we hold these past two years stay strong? We're not the most bonded class but at least we put an effort to stay together! ;D And yeah! I managed to look not-that-fat in our 2nd last photo together! ;D Wees! But I look kinda weird with that fringe and my hair tied inside a photo x.x" Its so... not ME-ness! X_O"

I'll sooo miss those damn-ed drawings on the noticeboard! I drew them at the start of the year larh! They're so precious.. looking at them every single day together with everyone else ;X But sad to say.. there are still ppl in class who don't know that those were drawn by me -_-lll ARGHS! where'd the credits go? T___T" sobZ

Btw.. Im currently starting to draw my manga entitled "Rorrim". I'm going to sign up an account on devianART.. to accept harsh and pleasant comments on my work xD For people who are interested to view my work... go to http://www.deviantart.com !! XD! When I've placed my work there.. I'll give my gallery link < 33 YAYYS~~ xD! 4th page is about to be done... Mangakas at school told me the first 3 pages were not bad! woots =X Look forward to its progress! xD

NEW HANDPHONE!

Wooots! Todae is like.. the happiest day or my life? xD (haven't experienced Monday, so.. Ionno! ;X) My mum signed the contract! WOOTS! My darling sony ericsson W580i is FINALLY MINEEE...!!!! XP WOOOOT! WOOT~ =X

I spent S$39.90 on a new white bag... I spend S$49.90 on a new black skirt... I spent S$22.90 on a new blouse... I spent S$45.90 on a new white-strapped heels (not high)... WOOOTS! xD I LOVE MY MOTHER SO MUCH! without her...! money will never have existed! =x My very important and personal ATM! ;D today yea.. was a shopping craz!

I'm gonna look so dam different on Monday ;X (I think) xD The new phone can add pictures to my blog straightaway! So damn cool! x.x" LOLZ... I reallly reallly DID NOT regret getting this phone! ITS SO DARN GOOD XD! Happy- Happy- Happy-!

No more T-shirts! No more Knee-Length Pants! GOODBYE YOU ALL IDIOTS! AHHAHAHAHA! XD -feng diao le-

&& I'm so proud of myself! Today my family ate ice cream! I am so shocked at myself that I resisted my daddy's temptation! WOOTS! EVERYONE! I RESISTED ICE----CREAM! XD This is so amazing O.O" AWWW~!! x3

I'm abit crazy.. juz ignore ;X *kisses phone, bag, shoe, skirt, blouse*

JIE IS BACK!

ZOMG OMG OMG!!! SNOW JIE DAISUKI DESU!!!!!! T.T" I missed you like hell... where have u been the past 5 months? T~T There's many things tt happened and I wanna talk to u about D; awws... time pass so fast! Its been half a year! How are you? I finally got to see you.. everytime I stare at your display name "blue princess jaslyn", I kept thinking back.. it's been almost 3 years huh? ;) U're one of the longest knowing friend i ever had! >.<" aww... How I wish I could travel back in time.. the year that passed 2 years ago is the year I enjoyed the most!

Time passes so fast >.<" Its so nice to reminisce... D; Snow Jie I love you so much T~T" I don't know if u'll ever read this but... D; I jus have to say all these out!!! My most treasured online buddies.. u're definitely one of them! Well~ after so long I'm glad u still rmb all the minor details about me >.<" Proves that during those 5 mths w/o internet.. I was never forgotten D;

Thank you for returning! thank you!!! I don't know how long I would have to stare at the "offline" sign... I'm so glad! ;D JIE WELCOME BACK! ;D <333>

Exams over!!

This is one of the 15 characters frm the manga that I have in mind LOLz.. name is rorrim kai.. manga name is also Rorrim Lmao... For people who know about it.. yea good ;X Rorrim is Mirror spelt backwards on purpose xD

Sigh.. yea.. I think my guys still dun look like guys.. Lydia said they looked half-feminine SOBS D; so heartbroken D; I put alot of effort in them though >.<" sigh T.T" I'll just treat it as my room for improvement is HUGE!

Exams are over! and YAYs~~~!!! HOHO xD Tmr's the start of PSLE I heard =x Good luck for those taking PSLE! and those who are taking E-O-Ys soon or in progress! GAMBATTE! x]] I've never been so relaxed in my life XD But I seriously don't know what to do.. >.>" anyone have any anime to recommend? Aiks >.>" x.x"

Hope I don't screw my language papers... Pls God :( I dunno if I can fulfil my future promise to my parents anymore.. x.x" help~ feeling vexed even though its after exams... save me! :(

Pink swan

Done ;]] -Pink Swan-

White Swan drawing

Yozz..~ Posting another drawing lmao xDD

-White Swan-
Hmms.. Suddenly got motivated to do drawings on the theme "White Swan and Pink Swan"...
xD Maybe cos I'm suddenly obsessed with swans LOL! :X The girl at the fore-ground is how she looks as a normal person and the one behind is her as a swan <33 :X

Pink Swan is done too.. Gonna wait till scanning is done ~.~" lolzz..

Recently watched D.Gray Man.. and yea THUMBS UP! xD altho I'm not exactly obsessed with allen walker YET! LOLZ.. muz concentrate on exams! Thx wym for recommending it.. the first time I thought about watching it was when u talked about akumas and exorcists.. it sounded dam cool xD LoveYA WYM *hearts*~

EOYs start tmr.. GAMBATTE everyboDY! ㅅㅅ

사랑해! <-- I love you in Korean!

fucking hell sia...

FUUUUUUUUUUCCKIIIIIIIINGGGGGGGGG HELLLLLL!!!!! ZzZ... doesn't mean u're the opposite gender you get more authority over who to bully... DAMN U.. so pissed... zZz..

I'm OBVIOUSLY refering to A GUY..

HE IS MY SCHOOL, DUNNO IF IS SEC 3 OR 4 BASTARD. No simple respect for others.. especially when he knows clearly I'M A GIRL. I dunno him at all. While returing home frm school on bus 166, a boy sat next to me like ON PURPOSE and he had many "girlfriends" standing or sitting around him in other places.

Halfway thru the journey, he listened to his MP3 and fell asleep. AT FIRST, I THOUGHT HE WAS REALLY ASLEEP, but after awhile, I realised he's just pretending! All the way, he kept landing his head on my arm/shoulder.. WHICH IDIOTIC BITCH WOULDN'T WAKE UP UPON KNOCKING INTO A BONEY THING AFTER SO MANY TIMES? the bus jerked so many times, he didn't even wake up! WTF...

The whole way, his "girlfriends" just kept on giggling at his FUCKING actions. They didn't even bother to call him up.. not say HELP me out of the situation. its so WTH.. are guys this extreme? they choose who to bully and nth is going to happen? He publicly embarrassed me okay? I WHACKED HIS HEAD AND ARM and said "hello... wake up" AND HE DIDN'T EVEN RESPOND.. SO WTH WTH WTH!!!!! i nid to calm down...

Baka.. I'm so gonna make sure he loses his fathers' day. -pissed off-

nb.. I swear I'd be a les.

havent blogged for near a week! xD

Errz.. I just realised I haven't been blogging as often as I should have D;

Heyy! Classmates who read my blog!! Plz tell me what subject combi U taking, what Humans/Arts, what Sciences, what modules... Classmates/RV-ians who read my blog plz tell me TT.TT" The oni person tts going to take Art as a subject is me and Hoching... Lmao.. I darn feel like dropping one science n take module... Cell Animation is so damn cool!!

I'm so glad! I'm working harder and harder nowadays!! I Mug at night... frm 9 till midnight.. and Be glad to see how well I'm starting to do in Maths with Ailing's help XD Although I'm sure I'll screw this EOY again... I'll still study hard.. so no matter what results I get.. I'll be the one to know that I've done my best ;D and That's all that matters!! 8D

Hiring a student tutor for Mathematics... anyone? TT.TT" No pay tutoring! LOL :X

I feel so lacking in SP D; As if I lack boots or smth! WAIT! I do lack boots! LOL :3

Righttt after exams.. I'm so gonna enjoy myself alright! SO GONNA!!! Not a single one of my wishes fulfilled yet... Hope to fulfil all after EOYs! Gembatte to all EOY-examination takers and PSLE takers!! Study hard! Don't neglect your health &&... SHARON LOVES YOU!

[Xinyi, I'll try my very best not to disappoint u ^.^] *hearts~*

mum ran away from home

Ok... I'll just do a short and sweet post. My parents are making me feel as if I study in order not to get scolded by them. I shall clarify this in somewhere they will never see. I don't study for anyone's sake. I study for my OWN FUTURE.

My mum ran away from home.

My heart is hurting so much I can't breathe.

I'm crying so hard I can't tell the passing of time.

apologies

"Hey Girl? What's wrong with you? Don't let your thoughts run WILD before yourself! You're purposefully letting your WILD thoughts affect those important to you.. yeah! Keep your personality to yourself.. yea.. kk"

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Lmao >_> These are apology messages to the following people ^^
-FireXElement, my Fire Meimei *hearts*
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I'm sorry if I've neglected you.. I'm seriously seriously sorry... you're my best and only mei.. you forever will be.. you're nice in game .. you're nice in real.. x_x" I'm sorry I've been a really bad person.. both as a Onee Chan and as your friend... Just want you to know I love you from the bottom of my heart... you were never childish to me... you were always cute in my eyes :D (seriously.. you look and behave like you're more than 12 years old!)
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-Wymzic, Eleanor, my wonderful blood-shared lover *hearts*
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I'm sorry if I've made you sad.. I truely am! I don't know how much I've been hurting those around me... But.. these few days.. who I truely am is beginning to surface... I've used vulgarity like an insensitive kid.. I've begged for items in SP like its real money..... I can't help it.. too many things have been bothering me these days.. SP AND EOYs... I treasure you too much as a friend to even have negative feelings about you... I jus wanna be that... happy girl in your eyes... and up till now I can't believe... I cannot even point out a single thing you're negative in! Once again.. I'm sorry! I was the one who forced u into chocfudge... I'd better make sure you don't regret that.. T~T"
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-Riku... L2iku
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I'm sorry I throw my thoughts at you as and when I wish... although you won't get to read this.. I'll still have to express it out.. You have been a wonderful listener and comforter.. I cannot imagine SP life without you... you're reallllly important to me(I MEAN IT)... Scaring you have become a form of hurt to you... I feel very apologetic over my actions.. from now on.. I'll carry nothing but a smile in front of u ^^ I realised... you always smiled for me! And for that Thanks!
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-ZeroLeingod
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I guess.. the greed thing.. was my fault.. If i hadn't accepted him into the guild.. you wouldn't have been under the same negative category as me... you're not a greedy person.. I'm 100% sure I am never wrong! You're a nice person... you picture everyone to be a beautiful and happy person.. for that I'm really touched x.x" you're a wonderful guy.. If you were from Singapore.. who knows? I'd LOVE you? LOL(joke kk) alright.. once again.. I'm realllllyyyy sorry..!
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-iCez, GonG
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I dunno why I feel sorry for you... -.- maybe its cos of the Fire's bro thing... actually.. that day.. I was lying about laughing all the way x-x" what I detest most... is being called fat (not in the joking tone) repeatedly. I was frowning all the way.. that's why I kept quarrelling... Although.. u might think that's nth to say sorry about.. I still feel SO DAMN SORRY! i wasted your energy by making you type a quarrel with him... (not funny) sigh... you helped me alot for the past year liao... I'm oso damn happy you never once called me THAT BLOODY WORD.. -.- Being vulgar is affected by my brother de... For people who hate that part of me.. I'm sorry.. I grew up with a nice yet vulgar brother.. I can't do anything ^^ I believe in being myself ^^
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Riku told me... "You know I like you best right?" and at the most perfect timing.. Although I don't have a CRUSH on him... I feel so touched.. Actually I dropped a few tears when he said that.. he was already freaked out by the way I blurt every truth in his face.. yet... he keeps on smiling... T.T
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Sorry to everyone in ChocFudge. I don't deserve to be your leader. Even I know that....

ehh. so weird?

Hmm.. Dunno wussup with me xD haha.. suddenly wanna return back to KSP? I wasn't able to let go of the friends and fun I had there afterall... ahaa... however I think some part of me have changed xD Hmm..~~ i also dunno what XD I only know I have to smile for everyone.. or someone xD I just love treating the quarrel of gong n my bro as a free form of entertainment!! xD When I went to maple~~~ suddenly felt at a loss... :/ nobody's my friend there... Smiling only when my bro acts lame? xD

Oh ya! MY PHONE! MY BLOOODY BLOOODY PHONE!! it's like as good as junk? nuuu!! I wanna change to that PHONE !! tHaT *points* W580! ZOMFG!!! X_X" SOO PRETTY LARH!! yay!! my life is finallllyyy JOYOUS! I'm starting to work harder for exams now! so proud of myself :X! I'M GONNA WEIGH MYSELF AGAIN TMR! ZOMG!! I must be 60kg and below.. PLS PLS!!! T~T

Man.. I read gong's post.. its sooo damn SWEEET SIA!! xD although it ain't fer me :x ~~ xD i'm starting to love ChocFudge more and more!!!!!! :D I take back my words.. I THINK.. SP IS MY LIFE XD !!!!

new drawing!~!~!~!...

HOORAY HOORAY! Once again I WAS MOTIVATED TO DRAW DRAW DRAW!! suddenly got fascinated by baby dragons :X HEAD TOO SMALL LE LAA T.T" ahahah! i spent alot of effort on this one!!!

Yea Yea.. I'm gonna draw and draw and draw EVEN MORE!! I decided! when I'm good enough.. I'll sell my drawings :X HAHAHHAHAHAHAH! *ego*

Sigh.. so many things happened at school today. I found out today that Eugenie, Feei and Gayle cheated in the Bio test... ~_~" the whole class was like... errr... Well.. if either one of you read my blog.. I'll clearly state m stand :)) No matter how badly I'm gonna score, even if i'm BOUND to fail... cheating is something that will never cross my mind. I hope you guys will confess with honour n like muxin said "integrity" haha... If i were Wenli.. even though I threaten to tell the teacher.. I would never do it.. I believe chances have to be given :D Just don't do it again. Ms Lai will understand ^^ *hearts*

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-New Story-

Boy: Happy valentine's day!

Girl: hey.. why'd you give me a fake rose D:

Boy: Course it's pretty!

Girl: How insincere... :(

Boy: :O?

-Girl leaves and leaves the boy alone on valentine's day-

-2 days later, she receives a sms from the boy, it said...-

"I gave you a fake rose because no matter how beautiful and fragrant real roses are, they do not last... however... my love for you lasts forever... I thought a fake rose would make you happy... I'm sorry :("

-Girl breaks down-

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A flower so attractive- Yet, any real flower would wither one day-

Dunno wussup with me.. after seeing 2 ppl cry in class today.. I'm somehow reminded of my childhood scar... how foolish I was to nearly give up my life... -.-"

DUCK TOUR!

AS I PROMISED!! xDD I took some photos of today's duck tours! woo! MAN DID I ENJOY MYSELF! (except the part where the tour guide explained historical things about kampong glam and little india where I fell asleep on the bus, hehe ^^")

HUGGG MUMMY *hearts* x]] FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE YET TO SEE HOW MY BROTHER LOOKS LIKE! THERE! THERE!! xDD (extreme right)

its damn shiok to be on the helium balloon!!! (one spark of fire can cause an explosion D:) bro next to me! dad extreme right :3

ME SOLO!! AHHH! @_@"

just got onto the ballooon!!!! mum doesn't look forward to it! SHE'S AFRAID OF HEIGHTS HAHA! XD bro's skinny right? TT~TT

whole family! I LOVE THEM ALL! cept the one on the extreme right D:

bottom view of the ENORMOUS balloon! WOW!

I LOVE U DADDY *hearts hearts* largest fountain in the world at suntec city! :P

Us in front of the balloon! getting ready to tale flight!!

UP UP AND AWAYYYYYY~~~ !!!! XD

being reaLLLYYY close to mommy *hearts*

HIPPO BUS!! xD

MAMA MERLION! hahaha! papa merlion is at SENTOSA!!

woots! caught a shot of a passing speed boat!

HAHA! prove that we took the boat bus :P -boat-on-wheels-

Singapore's national birds!! SO MANY CRANES! HAHA! (cold joke :X)

see!! the duck boat behind us getting into water! so cool right?

closer view of the boat-on-wheels!!! xP cool invention :x

EsPLANADE!!~

MAGNIFICANT ferris wheel!! who wanna ride with meee? x_x"

Lalala!! today was FREAKING enjoyable! although my bro kept saying "WAH LAO EH! go home better la... play comp better.. all this fking boring shit... kao.. waste my bloody time tmd.. ccb..." LMAO XD hahahahah!!! so fun listening to him complain!!!

-End, a new drawing coming up most probably tomorro!~ Look forward to it!-