'Merci'

Its late, I wanted to sleep early so that I can concentrate on
studying tomorrow... and I've got guitar lesson too..

I've been watching the anime and the drama Nodame Cantabile
recently, it might've caused me my math mark, but it gave alot
more meaning to my life for the past week. Why didn't my mother
allow me to learn the piano as a child? Its still the biggest regret
in my life.. I really wish to play '100 years' on the piano, one of
the best melodies I've ever heard..

Its funny right? To start learning piano at this age?
(Yes.. I'm waiting for someone to seriously tell me its not.)

I'm beginning to feel like I'm wasting my time in JC.. none of the
subjects besides Econs are to my interest. Am I obliged to score
well for A levels? Somehow, I dislike that feeling..

The concept on tokenism was funny! (GP) up to you to think math.

Nodame made me ponder about what I want in my life.. Paris
sounds like a dream world to be in.. (I know music's too late for
me now, so is the Arts, LOL. I'm not really interested in Art any-
more though.)

Sometimes I really wish I'm just really talented in an aspect that I
enjoy..

All the talks about university.. Would I even end up in one?

There's something missing from my life;
I hope it surfaces soon..

happy 17th birthday darling!

First note:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY DARLING! :D

Today went mr hor's house to bai nian! (I did get an ang bao :D)
nearly gambled the whole afternoon away, I earned $5.50 from
black jack! woo! (My max bet was 30 cents!) Earned alot from
being banker :D

Alright. I've decided not to give up yet. Not like anything will
ever happen... Since I haven't confirmed it, I won't give up. It'll
hurt more, but till then, I'll be blaming my own stupidity and
ideal that there is a happy scene in everyone's life.

Should I trust people less? Am I too gullible?
Would I be a happier person?
note the '-ier'.

$$

Flowery flats are in fashion I think, LOL!
I'm wondering if I should buy a pair for myself~

I can't believe CNY celebrations passed so fast
this year. and I'm quite pathetic since its the first
year I started betting for blackjack for.. more
than 6 hours straight? xD It was fun nonetheless.

Did I eat alot of heaty food? I can't understand why my
throat is hurting so much T.T I hope I don't sound too
funny tomorrow.. I'm evil, I'm actually hoping for a BIG
angbao from mr.hor, muahaha

I hope I can make my final decision tomorrow..

its gonna be xinyi's birthday in about 25 minutes :)

Green is a good colour for my Chinese Zodiac this year!
I wore green today!

Love for CNY

Isn't it weird for couples to go bai nian when they should
totally be going out together?

My bro's friend that lives opposite us left a gigantic wu gui
(my favourite D:) at my house... and yeah sad to say its not
for me... its for his girlfriend! (probably didn't want to let his
parents know xD) how am I left to feel? envious? LOL

V-day is strange this year. I hope I don't receive chocolate
coins anymore, pft!

Wondering:
1) Should I go back to pei hwa? got time?
2) Should I go to mr hor's house? Most probably? Why not?
3) I dare not wonder further.

Really. Why am I always left with impossibilities?

I'm glad we got to chat again after so long, so distant yet so near.
So far out and not within my grasp. Never will be I guess? Every
time its not this, its that. Lack of refreshingness; creativity? Oh the
fear. Opportunity costs. Econs is my fav subject now, can you
believe it? xD

School work is getting disgusting. I must get into a local Uni..
Don't deny it, people around me are all freaks!

I miss 4D, my days of slackiness! seriously, if I work as hard as I'm
doing now when I'm in 4D, instead of still lagging behind, I'd be titled
a freak la! The stress! URGH! Why can't i find the motivation to slack
this year away?

as wants approach infinity, fulfilment approaches zero.

可是，我还是要 leh.

I have an overwhelming desire to laugh! Someone tell me a joke!
(Please don't say things like, "Sharon" or "Sharon is thin")

WAHAHAHA!