Finally played back after like.. half a year or more? some things changed
in audi and there are alot more nicer songs now! :D

I love the new insane perf mode LOL! It makes your points shoot like crazy! xD Insane perf is like the perfectest of a perfect.. there's actually a range of hits for perfect lol! the 21/26 means only 21 out of the 26 perfects i hit are perfectest perfects, LOL! it sounds funny.. Even after so long, i'm glad i didn't lose all my skill T.T

i'm left with a LOT of WORK. a HUGEE lot. I have no idea how I'm going to finish my homework.. esp when I'm busy audi-ing every night and going out every day... I'm crazy.. totally ruining myself... someone help... help.. help... *echo*

actually I did do some work.. its not that serious.. tmr after physics in school I'm definitely rushing through as much work as I can.. rly don't want to die in JC!

was it revelation?

I learnt a new word today (:

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Its almost been a year since it began.
about half a year since I started regretting.

Its like, its too late to say its too late.

The only thing that stayed in my head after reading the
first issue of 'The Economist' was that Viktor Yanukovich
(If i didn't spell wrongly) is Ukraine's president. LOL. I
know its crap, forgive me~

This night, I've been spamming some american idol videos
on youtube. The bad ones were amusing and the good ones
were really fun to watch. Its so nice to see people's dreams
come true.

Some people wonder why they were such fools,
I wonder why they do.

And yet again, I didn't do any work today...
guilty :(

N.C.!

Nodame Cantabile! :D Movie one is coming out in Singapore on 11th
March! (Must watch! ok.. the drama is a pre-quel though)

'Music is something that can change your life'

Chiaki & Nodame! (Tamaki Hiroshi & Ueno Juri) one of my fav drama couples!

The more I look at Tamaki hiroshi in the drama, the better looking he is LOL! He's just not photogenic sometimes.. like the movie poster.. made him look like some old man la..

And yes.. this is the drama that triggered my thought that 'Piano is still not too late'. And.. for music haters, I suggest you do not watch this at all. I managed to make liuqiao watch 1 episode of it, and it seems like she'll like it, hehe! There's at least someone who might watch the movie with me.. :)

I'm getting greedy.. Besides piano and guitar.. now I wanna learn Hip-hop. ok the thought didn't just suddenly come to me, I just got the agreement of all 5 of the guitar people since the topic first appeared somewhere during the holidays last year I think? Sigh, what about my A levels?

My friend's brother got all As except for H3 physics and he's super elated.. well he should be! And I wish I could score that well next year too.. I guess in the end, if you're not a genius, it'll all be down to hard work. If I.. for some weird and unknown reason, manage to obtain a scholarship.. I'm really tempted to study in London. Unbelieveable right? The government would pay not only your school fees but also your existence (food and stuff) just because your academic results are good!

If I didn't end up being alright with my studies.. would I have pursued Art? Music? Would my life turn out much more fascinating? Unpredictable?

Alright back to reality. I know I'm practical.

'Merci'

Its late, I wanted to sleep early so that I can concentrate on
studying tomorrow... and I've got guitar lesson too..

I've been watching the anime and the drama Nodame Cantabile
recently, it might've caused me my math mark, but it gave alot
more meaning to my life for the past week. Why didn't my mother
allow me to learn the piano as a child? Its still the biggest regret
in my life.. I really wish to play '100 years' on the piano, one of
the best melodies I've ever heard..

Its funny right? To start learning piano at this age?
(Yes.. I'm waiting for someone to seriously tell me its not.)

I'm beginning to feel like I'm wasting my time in JC.. none of the
subjects besides Econs are to my interest. Am I obliged to score
well for A levels? Somehow, I dislike that feeling..

The concept on tokenism was funny! (GP) up to you to think math.

Nodame made me ponder about what I want in my life.. Paris
sounds like a dream world to be in.. (I know music's too late for
me now, so is the Arts, LOL. I'm not really interested in Art any-
more though.)

Sometimes I really wish I'm just really talented in an aspect that I
enjoy..

All the talks about university.. Would I even end up in one?

There's something missing from my life;
I hope it surfaces soon..

happy 17th birthday darling!

First note:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY DARLING! :D

Today went mr hor's house to bai nian! (I did get an ang bao :D)
nearly gambled the whole afternoon away, I earned $5.50 from
black jack! woo! (My max bet was 30 cents!) Earned alot from
being banker :D

Alright. I've decided not to give up yet. Not like anything will
ever happen... Since I haven't confirmed it, I won't give up. It'll
hurt more, but till then, I'll be blaming my own stupidity and
ideal that there is a happy scene in everyone's life.

Should I trust people less? Am I too gullible?
Would I be a happier person?
note the '-ier'.

$$

Flowery flats are in fashion I think, LOL!
I'm wondering if I should buy a pair for myself~

I can't believe CNY celebrations passed so fast
this year. and I'm quite pathetic since its the first
year I started betting for blackjack for.. more
than 6 hours straight? xD It was fun nonetheless.

Did I eat alot of heaty food? I can't understand why my
throat is hurting so much T.T I hope I don't sound too
funny tomorrow.. I'm evil, I'm actually hoping for a BIG
angbao from mr.hor, muahaha

I hope I can make my final decision tomorrow..

its gonna be xinyi's birthday in about 25 minutes :)

Green is a good colour for my Chinese Zodiac this year!
I wore green today!

Love for CNY

Isn't it weird for couples to go bai nian when they should
totally be going out together?

My bro's friend that lives opposite us left a gigantic wu gui
(my favourite D:) at my house... and yeah sad to say its not
for me... its for his girlfriend! (probably didn't want to let his
parents know xD) how am I left to feel? envious? LOL

V-day is strange this year. I hope I don't receive chocolate
coins anymore, pft!

Wondering:
1) Should I go back to pei hwa? got time?
2) Should I go to mr hor's house? Most probably? Why not?
3) I dare not wonder further.

Really. Why am I always left with impossibilities?

I'm glad we got to chat again after so long, so distant yet so near.
So far out and not within my grasp. Never will be I guess? Every
time its not this, its that. Lack of refreshingness; creativity? Oh the
fear. Opportunity costs. Econs is my fav subject now, can you
believe it? xD

School work is getting disgusting. I must get into a local Uni..
Don't deny it, people around me are all freaks!

I miss 4D, my days of slackiness! seriously, if I work as hard as I'm
doing now when I'm in 4D, instead of still lagging behind, I'd be titled
a freak la! The stress! URGH! Why can't i find the motivation to slack
this year away?

as wants approach infinity, fulfilment approaches zero.

可是，我还是要 leh.

I have an overwhelming desire to laugh! Someone tell me a joke!
(Please don't say things like, "Sharon" or "Sharon is thin")

WAHAHAHA!

stuff

Friday morning (and i really mean morning, 00.00am) was horrible..
Went to gym and i ran the machine at 8.5 for 10 minutes with 3 min
cooldown. it seems really bad to see how much my stamina has dropped!

seriously speaking, I don't understand why I'm going to gym, LOL

so that night (thursday?) I went home and had alot of homework...
(I went home and honestly accepted that I HAD alot of homework...)
So... yeah, I somehow died and revived.

Econs was funny, I was suffering from severe hunger while trying
really hard to concentrate on the lecturer, until ximeng blurted out:
"Is that your stomach growling?" T.T LOL. And PE was well, slack,
so today was alright~

I'm really laughy nowadays, no idea why, jesslyn says I can say
certain things that nobody laughs at and i'll laugh to myself.. I kinda
made myself seem like a retard, LOL!

I'm 17 soon and I don't wanna accept it.. JC seems so stressful.. so..
for a grown-up.. to be honest, i love being 16, i doubt there's any age
better than that... and I think that's the last worry-free age. ah well,
its all part of experiencing life :O

I'm thinking a lot nowadays...
I shouldn't even be thinking a lot...
destressing is a skill (jesslyn agrees)...
I realise how much I love going to qiaozi's house...
Its like my second home now...
And I think everyone has something to hide...
Hiding means no one knows about it...
Pry and grumble...
no one's gonna tell you!
(pft, yes I do feel abit crazy after typing that)

2 years will pass fast.. before I know it! :D

'Time waits for no one.'

Hm?

woo

School is so busy.. JC really sucks T.T the principal told
us not to blog about what he said in an indirect way. So
I shall be what he wants me to be, a mature student.
What he says every morning or something loses its effect
if he repeats it every single week anyway.

Frm 9 subjects.. now I only have 6? Why is it 100x more
stressful? Although my timetable is the best among all
PCME classes... the amount of stress the lecturers and
teachers give me is humongous. GP sounds so difficult to
score. I can already predict that I'm gonna screw up my
A levels. :(

My bro is going to a poly.. so he has holidays till April...
and he still can work and enjoy himself with his friends.
I've never been so jealous of him before! T.T

Ah well. I guess this is the fate of all JC students..
I really wonder how I'm going to start my Econs
homework.. its super confusing LOL.

But above all, I kinda like my new class now :)
To all the people who are depressed, cheer up!

gym.gym

Woah, how long has it been since I last updated?
ah well.. I won't say much about the Japan trip, been telling
the experience verbally to far too many people xD

Just some photos from Japan.. 3 actually, we've taken
over 600 I think LOL!

Mt Fuji

Mt Fuji

Disneyland

It was really fun and really nice. A place without insects nor rubbish.. imagine that? xD

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I've been going to gym for the past 2 days (including today) Its really tiring but rewarding I guess? Waking up at 7+ instead of 10+ is really torturous for me.. and furthermore to go to the gym! LOL.. why did I even go? I actually have no drive nor motive about going there.. just to hang out with xinyi I guess? xD

Couples retreat is a dam nice movie LOL! I laughed throughout the movie like nobody's business.. americans are really good at being humourous xD That's why I love comedy.. sadly for those below 16, its NC16.. I really recommend people to watch it.. super funny LOL.

Been playing back maple recently, hm, I'm being really abnormal. i rmb I swore not to touch maple forever anymore.. but ah well.. I somehow went back.. everythings' changed. The people aren't as nice as those in the past.. Hopefully I can make good cyber buddies again.. it was so fun in the past to meet up with them xD

WHOO! CYCLING ON FRIDAY! hopefully pool on thurs~ I feel so lively this holidays xD