...eziloponom ot erised ehT

9th July is the last paper if I'm not wrong! Right after theres PW
and stuff but.. at least chem is all I have to care about right now.

well and.. one word to describe how my holidays have been. PLAY. :X

Yes, I don't deny my life isn't ending soon! I read through 3 topics
for chem today! Thats the most I've ever done this whole holidays..
and.. I'm left with math assignment 5C for math~ Study!! STUDY!
See.. even something as simple as typing these out is a distraction..
so much for telling my parents, I-need-a-laptop-cus-I-need-it-for-
work. Why is playing a boyish game such as soldier front so ... very..
addictive? especially when I get to laugh like mad with my bro LOL

Maybe I'm not being boyish by liking that kind of game, maybe I
just need a medium to laugh and interact with my bro, since we're
of opposite gender... I can't just tell him, "hey! i saw a dress at..."
what would life be like with a twin sis instead?

I've been thinking ALOT less these days. and well, I CAN HULA-
HOOP! FINALLY! LOL! Don't laugh at me!!!! T.T I was so happy
when I realised I could finally do it like.. 3hours ago!

What's wrong with only being attracted to things that are attracted
to you? I'm not talking about gravity or gravitation.

In the end. Is it worth my time and heart or my entire consciousness?
Its like waiting for..

someone that never shows up..

something that will never occur..

some being that won't ever care..

some mythical monster that won't ever exist..

some miracle that exists in the perfect sense of itself..

somebody that will be the last to realise you're waiting for em'.

is it impatience? cowardice?
Why is your every action making me think I was wrong from
the very beginning?

on a lighter note: I finally cut my nails so I won't scratch my kb!
its like cutting hair.. it pains to see them shorter, LOL!

I must finish chem bonding today!

chingu!

Personal Preference is really awesome! :D I really recommend
the drama! heh!

I think I'm about the only one who hasn't touched s SINGLE
homework or picked up a SINGLE piece of note to read.. and,
well, study. Yes, this phrase must be in your mind right now
even if your situation is like mine. "You're so dead."

I'm so guilty.. guilty beyond hope LOL. and I must have quite
alot of courage since I'm actually doing nothing about it LOL.
well.. I swear I'll work like mad in the last week. Or maybe
after 5G chalet. Which is like.. 1 day :X

Oh where are you? My jian-fei resolve... *echo* *echo*...

Instinct comes to you when the bearer wishes to keep the
absolute truth hidden. Can I trust my instincts? Is it really
what I think it is? If it is... its just a...

really...

calm, clean, shore.

No one moves. No one wants to move. No one moves.

And that's when you or someone else screams, "MOVE IT!"
Don't just scream! Force or push!!!

ok I'm really retarded and in my own world. LOL!
(Don't say that to me ok! I will deny the retarded part)

whhh-aaaaai! :D Furry vengeance! I hope it'll make me laugh
really, REALLY hard.

Will there ever be a weather clear enough for me to fly a kite?

back from macau!

Finally back!

took me quite a long while to start blogging about it though haha

Many happy things happened during the trip, there were some

sad and angry moments too apparently.. Well, all that starts well

ends well (I would want to believe in that)

I realised I'm a bad person who hates. well I think everyone is

like that too. The zebra-crossings required traffic police.. there

were 3 of them, "guarding" one zebra-crossing that's less than 3m

long, LOL! Singapore is REALLY safe, trust me on that!

Not enough money! I couldn't buy my mango shorts ): darn!

I miss macau! I miss my room-mates! I miss uni life, it was a short

week but it was nice :) It pains me to think I may never get to

experience it ever again!

Its when one is emotional that one can truely realise another's

true heart. I came to realise this at the end of the trip :) Some

people are just meant to be there, polished and stationed;

impossible to replace.

I wanna return to macau again next year, and it'll be my 3rd

time there! And this time, I'm going to go crazy on SicBo &

Baccarat! I shall win big $! muahaha :D

alright, tomorrow is chalet, I'm busy for this entire week again!

Hope I stay in good health!

There's something I need to tell you, or rather, you have to

know. Chance, grant me you.

preparation

I feel so busy.. I guess distracting myself from strange thoughts
by participating in numerous CIP will kill me someday! And ...
there's another full-day CIP at ECP tmr, I just hope I won't fall
sick and that I can go to Macau in good health :)

On a lighter note: happy birthday yongen! ha, they said that the
class tee looks girly! just the kind I like (for the whole class)! pft~
:D

What other things can I do to distract myself? No studying pls.
I'm so sick and tired of the notes, they look like hokkien-english
to me. some sort of jargon gibberish! ok well, I'm making a general
statement for science. I'm having alot of trouble with sciences!
HELP!! (can you hear my cries?)

Things won't happen even though it should. There's always
someone or something that will initiate the occurance. Maybe
I should find enough courage to face this head-on. Get it over
and done with. Should it result in a bad outcome, I know at
the very least that its really time to move on.

and then again. What if it gets out of hand?

Its not like anyone knows what I'm thinking...

Even if there is, it'll still be unbelieveable, or maybe even
unacceptable.

I shall swear that I'll get it over and done with! PLEASE! just
one minute or less! let it be gone!

hm, I wanna fly a kite :)

;;

... and then you're kinda reminded that tomorrow really never comes...

struggling with math, it doesn't feel like holidays are coming at all.

today while going home, after I have reached clementi MRT, there
was this malay guy with his group of friends travelling up the
escalator to take the train (I was going down) Then throughout the
whole "journey" he kept saying in a loud voice, "faster la, in front
the people can faster or not? The train coming lah~" (it was the train
I alighted from so there's no way they could've made it) Then when
they reached the top, I heard him shouting, "alamak! see la, the train
go already!" I wanted to burst out laughing but contained myself
and ended up grinning xD (It was quite embarrassing considering
the fact that nobody around me knew why I was grinning)

First Aid course... pretty interesting (good recap) and.. gruesome
because of the blood-spurting thing.

Um.. where's my FA manual?

;

moods are unpredictable, like how burnt a cake is.
(its just a representation)

I never knew it was so terrible to feel so terrible, and in fact,
for no proper reason. Someone... be my punchbag! ~

times when you feel your life is ending just because your eyelids
can hardly keep themselves apart i.e. I'm tired! :(

tomorrow will be better :S

kaleidovision

Lol I had a nightmare a few days ago, just thought I'd share it xD

it was raining heavily and I was staying up late using the comp (it seemed
like around.. maybe.. 1am? and then for some weird reason the window in
the living room was open and I left my laptop near the window (like why
did I do that? LOL) so it was soaking wet. LOL! and then when I walked
away, I heard some tapping noise at the window so I went over to look, I
saw my laptop out in the rain, it was being put onto the window ledge. I
took it in and closed the window. Then after awhile I heard the tapping
noise again.. Then I walked over to look. I saw a strange looking creature
with luminous eyes staring and smiling at me while tapping on the window
at an unbelieveable speed. I dashed away trying to call my parents up
but they had no response. and then I heard the tapping coming from my
room. I freaked out and I woke up. LOL!

Ok fine. it doesn't sound that scary but if you were actually in it, its dam
scary... LOL! T.T

am I just obsessed over my laptop? Like is the dream telling me I'm
gonna lose it soon? haha

some ppl say dreams depict reality, some say its the opposite. well all my
dreams are really crazy and senseless anyway. I still rmb when I was in
primary school, I had dreams like being in some pumpkin-waterfall
wonderland and that my mum had become a vampire. LOL! Am i actually
really deviant in nature? xD

well uh. that's it for the nightmare part.

Friday, the one that passed, was an overly hectic day. I lost around 100
billion brain cells. (I'm reminded of the fact that I told liuqiao that if she
can write out the number 1.0 x 10^(one billion trillion zillion trillion billion),
I'd give her that amt of money in cash. LOL! sorry, random.)

anyway, it was after school and mrs tan refuse to release me early to rush
for my guitar lesson at 4. So we took half an hr to rush to qiao's house,
change and everything. (we had to carry 3 guitars. my stupid bag and my
fat file) So we nearly died carrying those. And then we had to rush for the
train.... and then to my house so that I can put the stuff down (cos I had
sth on that night, dun wanna carry so many things) So.. we had no choice
but to take a taxi to guitar. AND, we MADE IT IN TIME! LOL! We did all
that in around 1hr 15min? that's what you call, super-human.

I swear to never go through that experience again!

28 more days. Seriously, what will I do?

and ya... darn, after I type finish I'll have to turn to work.
again.

Pensando En Ti

I can't believe PI and GP has completely stolen my weekend
away from me! D: Spare me a weekend please...

I'm so busy with work I can't even breathe! I hope that does
not become literal anytime soon.. A levels is the last hurdle
EVER. I'll get over it... it... it......

Hm.. muffins, ate some at qiao's house and she said it was bought
from Shengsong. It was really nice but her mum looks down on
such low-grade fatty substances LOL! I don't even have time or
will to lose any weight! I've got plenty of brain cells to lose though..

I love to stand and watch
when you keep absolutely still
I won't hesistate to pounce.

Laptop!

I didn't expect to get my new laptop today LOL. Especially
when I didn't go anywhere to look at models anytime before
today at IMM. I chose the VAIO 'S' series white. Its pretty,
the design is really similar to a macbook, which is kind of why
I decided so fast. Strangely, my parents didn't really hesitate

oh ya, while there, I saw some of my audi fam friends. It was
such a coincidence haha

I've been slacking off too much. will I work more tomorrow?

Its nice to know somebody knows. Do I think the one that
doesn't know, or one(s) with an 's', should be more knowing
about what they do not know? Sometimes its best just not
to know. Knowledge is to be obtained. Not given.

and some day I'll find myself thinking about something so senseless
all over again. idiocy, they say.

12:34:56, 11:11:11
I just want it to happen.

my bro has a monstrous appetite.
More so than my dad.
O__O

made my day

This was from quite awhile back but.
It really made my day that day, its so freaking adorable :)

It was nice talking to pnghang and liuqiao today, it made me happy
despite a continuous 4hours of science lessons. I realised that I've
met a considerable lot of weird people in my life. Its funny how ppl
agree with you but none of both parties are willing to voice out that
opinion.

Studies.. as usual, always difficult to comprehend.

My mum allows me to go for the econs+math Macau trip! woo! :D
I'm bound to become some gambling or investing addict someday.
I really hope I'm just kidding. But ah well, I didn't make it in time
for April Fool's day~ I only heard 1 joke yesterday, and it was so
lame I bursted out laughing LOL

I nearly fell asleep while walking home.. Like.. land myself against
a very prominent wall and embarrassing myself xD

New discovery! The MRT going from Boon Lay to Clementi isn't
crowded at all after 6.25pm! :) Just a tip for commutors.

Sometimes I wonder,
am I waiting in solitude..
or are we both waiting?