Get well soon mummy!

My mum has been hospitalised due to a minor stroke from a
fall during the Japan trip. I'm really glad she seems alot better
then the 2nd day of our return from Japan! I'm hoping real
hard and praying to any god out there that she'll be fine enough
to return home tomorrow!

Home just doesn't feel the same without her! xD

Will post some pictures up soon I guess? (Even though I
haven't even uploaded them on facebook, pft, i'm a real lazy
bump xD)

Thanks to all the people who expressed concern and even
came to visit! :D

I realise I'm really weak at heart.. despite laughing so much,
LOL. I cried when my dad shouted at me over the phone
because I wasn't home at the time they decided to visit my
mum at the hosp.. I cried when I thought about all the bad
things that could happen to my mum and my family because
of the stroke.. I cried when xinyi called my dad to clear the
misunderstanding.. I cry too much T.T

I'm so happy there are so many people who care!
ARIGATO GOZAIMASU!

Japan!

woo, the plane to japan takes off at 11:45pm today! :D
woohoo~ sushi sushi sushi, time to gain some weight.
I'll lose them back in singapore. LOL!

argh, I cut my hair.. ok my mum did.. its... a big
difference from my previous hairstyle.. (in terms
of length) I hope it'll grow a little longer.. I find it
too short right now T.T

...

ahh.. a huge disappointment today.

I guess I blogged kinda too late since I've already complained
about it thoroughly to my family, LOL. I feel less of the pissed-
off and disappointed(ness).

Well.. instead of the vulgar word.. I shall use what the heck.
Like how did we land up as 9? I can't understand.. HC and
Jeff did so much sia! We even got help frm kendrick..( tho
RI got help from their parents which was so wth). and the
worst thing is, we actually put alot of effort into our robo-
design.. but why did we still end up not in top 3? is anima-
tion like, worth 50% of the marks? Or did we score ZERO
for animation? It doesn't make any sense.

Damn, I just realised I'm not as angry as I should be. Prob-
ably due to fatigue.. I'm really sleepy while typing this.. I'm
glad my mum found a use for the lap-top stand thing..

ahh.. this has been a wth day. I've never seen all of us as
moodless as today.. I just remembered.. we couldn't even
remember to make the badge thingy.. We'll probably smash
it or smth anyway.. like what's wrong with the judging..

Making robocode seem so worthless despite being an IT
competition.. like what the hell man.

fullstop. enough bitching..
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Tomorrow going liuqiao's house with yunhan for a sleepover!
Man I'm hoping it'll be damn fun! A good chance to forget all
the unhappiness today I guess?

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Jack's place student meal was more worth it than BREEKS~
I shall love jack's place from now on.

HCL O's are OVER! all OVER!
StrITwise still stays as a form of hindrance to my wonderful
holidays.. someone will get piss-ed from looking at this..

I'm depressed, i shall be frank-er rofl.
I spent S$44.55 on a bunch of detestful crap. :X opps.
alright, they're not crap, essential for better benefits..
well ok whatever.. it just sucks to once be rich and then
go broke...

ah this just sucks T.T
One of the rare times I ever get into a bad mood

Food becomes real if you stare at the image long enough..

I guess I already have my answer;

I should really stop struggling so hard.

If I've been struggling at all.

I want my holidays.
like,
now!

:D

Finally met xinyi darling yesterday xD How long has it been?
close to 9 months right? I still remember the exact date the
last time we met up :X 21/02/2009 LOL!

Went to her house really early in the morning and I'm glad
none of us really changed much xD its best to do some catch-
ing up.. but no matter how much time passes, I get amazed
every single time I ponder about the fact that we stay as
best friends even after ... god. 7 years!
I still hope we end up in the same university~

Her mum's company car was so gorgeous.. it was metallic blue
and it was very, very soundproof! She drives better than my
mum LOL. Even though they both hold licenses. Its amusing
how women find parking harder than men do xD ION was also
interesting. The bottom 2 floors had swarms of people. And
from the 1st floor onwards to the 5th or 6th or I forgot how
many storeys there were.. Shops like PRADA and LV appear
and the number of people on these floors dramatically decreased
LOL! DRAMATICALLY. It was a sunday too. Someday I'll go
to orchard centre~ ok and I realise you actually need guts to
enter LV. LOL

I'm sometimes really glad to know that if all else fails in my life;
There's still someone who will definitely be there for me.
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Well.. for the past week since my Art O levels ended, I've been
having quite a life xD Went out every single day besides.. today,
it sounded cooler when I told somebody, "I went out everyday
except tomorrow", yesterday. LOL~ ah wth am I saying. I can't
believe guitar is getting more fun! we're almost finishing the
beginners' book with all the notes and chords and basics. Soon
we'll all be in grade one learning songs! :D Man I love playing
L-O-V-E on the guitar, nice and qianbian-ish kind of melody.

Wall painting on wed.. right aft HCL Os.. how boring. My mum keeps
all the smses which I have ever sent to her.. Its surprisingly and
touching.. Now I know I've learnt how to cycle since 17/12/2008!
Ok, I'll learn roller blading by 17/12/2009! xD I guess ice-skating
should be sooner since I've made promises, wahaha~

This will be a fuilfilling holiday ^^

well I hope chalet comes and stays that way forever.. after that, I
can't look forward to anything with the whole class anymore..

I haven't typed in 2 weeks~ Haven't read my teenage.. Haven't
touch a single thing for HCL.. Haven't really faced one reality...
Haven't tried to understand literature gibberish.. Haven't watched
enough movies..
(I'm aware they're all wants and not needs :x)

HOLIDAYS~ HERE I COME! (Japan woo!)

2001 counts!

Today was such a meaningful day! :D

The higher chinese mock paper was so.. crappy? I finished it within
1 hr and 10 mins and had like.. 50 minutes to draw random stuff and
sleep LOL! SMU focuses on business and management.. hm.. I'll see
if NUS really is a better university.. as of the subj combi I want for
JC.. as of now.. would be PCME.. even if I wanted to change, I don't
think I have any other options to choose from..

After school went to JP with jiali, cheryl, shuuyin, grace and tiening.
we went to eat at subway.. I felt super fat, double choc cookie and
cheese STEAK. wrong cookie. wrong sandwich, WRONG! LOL
Thank god what happened after made my day xD

There was an Anlene(milk brand) stage game and fund raising at the
1st floor there, right next to subway. They had this stepping machine
that allowed people to reach 100 counts or more. And for every 100
counts(200 steps), Anlene would donate $2 to a charity organisation
with people suffering from bone problems(I forgot the term :X) I
reached 2001 counts!(4002 steps) LOL! It took more than half an hr,
I was sweating like hell even in air-con conditions. Imagine how much
exercise that was! LOL, I'm pretty sure I've burnt off some of the fats
I gained from subway LOL~

I raised $40 for charity! FOR CHARITY! and man, it felt so good! :D
All of us did the stepping thing too. Our total count added to aprox. 9400!

AMAZING RIGHT?

Its been so long since I've done something meaningful, I feel so happy
today wahaha~ Sadly I need to start preparing for art.. if not I'd go there
again tmr to raise more funds.. can help me jian fei also, LOL~

I'm going to start jogging every saturday starting from tmr..
how I wish I had a bike xD but oh, damn the maintenance.

oh ya, jiali I applaud you for daring to go on stage to participate in the
stepping competition! HAHA! she won two oatmeal and an Anlene
concentrate, so healthy~

I'm a little too addicted to bridge..

Should I risk the change?

sleepy

wa.. I feel so pathetic these days, its not even 10 yet and I have to
sleep. I'm so close to collapsing LOL.. aiya.. maybe sleeping early is
good for me, age slower heh~

Sakae sushi was.. Fat.. but fun xD The group of people I went out
with today was fun lol, hope to go out more together~ ah, it made
a hole in my wallet, had to refill cash or I'll go broke before I know
it! I haven't cycled/jogged in a long time.. I better start soon.

Its amazing how much people can change. random thought

After i left shuwei at clementi mrt station, I kept emitting the
leave-me-alone vibe, like.. what's wrong with me? I'm already
so happy, maybe I need to be happier with my already-happy
happiness, LOL! ok wth am I saying?

The classroom is very hot, its killing me and destroying my moods!

I'm saddened by my results, uberly. But everyone else around me
cheered me up without doing anything special at all LOL! maybe
I'm just a laughter-seeker, its good to sleep early AND be optimistic,
I hope and may be able to live longer~!

nasi wa wu ji pa ban~ JI... PA... BAN!

Wannabe by spice girls is nice ok! though it sounds annoying when
somebody sings it out xD

experience makes a person wiser

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My results are.. man I don't wanna talk about it T.T
My GPA of 3.6 is gone.. I don't even want to hope for a
3.4 or 3.5 ... unless moderation really does miracles~

ok I know I'm quite ass-holey for worrying about my
results.. since there are many people who worry about
promotion.. well, having a GPA of 2.5 would get you
promoted too anyway~ the school's "nice"

but still.. I'm so disappointed with my results.. esp art.

At least I laughed super hard in school today LOL. I
can't understand myself.. why do I laugh whenever I'm
being insulted! I can't control it LOL. Playing bridge in
class and chatting in class was so nice.. exams are over,
its time to enjoy life!

There are so many unanswered questions..
There are so many things I need to know...
Why is it getting ambiguous..
Why does it seem to become increasingly impossible?

another weird saturday

Are all saturdays this strange? LOL.

It started on my journey home from clementi interchange.. the ppl
around me seemed really strange. There was this old man, he was
reading some.. paper and he just suddenly spasmed and the piece of
paper flew to me and slightly cut my arm. ouch. LOL! His eyes were
on the piece of paper and he just kept eyeing the paper until its in
his hands again, I looked at him with a "O.o" face.

Then comes the lady.. she was swinging her plastic bag merrily back
and forth (you know, typical actions of a child returning from tuition)..
and it hit me more than once.. (I was behind) and she didn't realise.
lol, strange. and again I stared.. of course, I knew she couldn't see.

There was also a guy who tapped his fingers on the metal bar dividing
the walkway.. humming a tune and clapping and snapping his hands.
To nobody. I wonder if he has no worries or has too much?

Finally something pleasant xD a middle-aged lady gave up her seat
to an old women, I always smile when I see such scenes~

During my walk home from the bus stop, I saw a male crow conti-
nuously hitting a drain cover.. raised his head feathers. I think he was
courting a nearby female crow. (There were really 2 crows)

And across the carpark, I heard a motorbike starting and thought it
was a helicopter landing.. (I have hearing problems LOL)

-Guitar was SUPER funny xD
-Kendrick's crying doll was SUPER cute xD
-The journey home was SUPER strange xD
-Nickelback's songs are SUPER weird but some are nice xD
-I'm SUPER aware I dont have time to be blogging xD
-I Realise coffee is SUPER useless on me xD
-I'm SUPER sure that I won't get any sleep tomorrow xD

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Saturday was an amazingly strange day.

I managed to study some of the year 3 topics for chem.. studied some
on sunday as well and I'm left with.. about 2-3 topics from year 4 which
I somehow plan to rush later in school before chem xD Its quite alot of
free time I realised, break.. and after chem paper 1, there's an hour of
study time.

Sat.
When dad was fetching me for guitar lessons as usual, I saw a very young
malay boy, probably around 7 years old, riding on an adult bike, and he
was carrying his little brother at the back of the bicycle. It was a very
sweet sight. but it led me into thinking.. why did his parents let him go
out alone.. moreover riding a bike.. and crossing roads with it, when he
is so young? He may learn to be independent sooner but.. won't the
parents end up hating themselves if anything ever happens to their son?

Ah, and I was almost late for guitar. I reached at 4.55pm, guitar starts
at 5. xD The sky was dark the whole day.. like a tornado was coming or
smth.. though it never rained. I'm still happy my dad asked me whether
I needed an umbrella out of concern :) Is it that I laugh easily or.. he
seemed to be making me laugh alot everytime we're in the car? xD

On the way home.. my guitar nearly smashed someone's face LOL!
I took the train with liuqiao from Bukit batok to JE and we split up
from there.. she lives at lakeside and me, clementi, what a sad
separation, and I have to experience it every sat xD

the train to clementi arrived and there was this teenage girl.. she was
clinging on to her boyfriend like she was glued to him or she was
possessed or smth.. I didn't particularly stare at her but she stared at
me.. like out of everyone there (it was 6+ peak hours), she chose to
stare at ME. I was so weirded out.

and there was a HUGE wall lizard at the lift area at my flat

I had a nightmare on sat morning too.. hope it doesn't come true.. I
can't seem to forget this nightmare like I did to all the rest..

I chatted with a close friend whom I haven't chatted with for a very
long time. It was a very meaningful conversation, (in my opinion). I
received valuable advice.. and it sorta.. rekindles the relationship and..
brings back wonderful memories xD I'll heed it, "don't regret it".
Thanks for the chat, I really needed it!

I should be mugging.. but I dont have the heart to do so anymore, LOL!
mind's too occupied at the moment.. haven't thought about so many
things since so long ago. well, at least there's smth to blame if all else
fails~ I wish that all my friends and myself will go through the exams
successfully(well if we don't die midway) and enjoy whatever comes
AFTER! ~

I'm so happy I can go to Japan, My parents' love for us has just leveled
up from perfection! xD