apologies

"Hey Girl? What's wrong with you? Don't let your thoughts run WILD before yourself! You're purposefully letting your WILD thoughts affect those important to you.. yeah! Keep your personality to yourself.. yea.. kk"

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Lmao >_> These are apology messages to the following people ^^
-FireXElement, my Fire Meimei *hearts*
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I'm sorry if I've neglected you.. I'm seriously seriously sorry... you're my best and only mei.. you forever will be.. you're nice in game .. you're nice in real.. x_x" I'm sorry I've been a really bad person.. both as a Onee Chan and as your friend... Just want you to know I love you from the bottom of my heart... you were never childish to me... you were always cute in my eyes :D (seriously.. you look and behave like you're more than 12 years old!)
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-Wymzic, Eleanor, my wonderful blood-shared lover *hearts*
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I'm sorry if I've made you sad.. I truely am! I don't know how much I've been hurting those around me... But.. these few days.. who I truely am is beginning to surface... I've used vulgarity like an insensitive kid.. I've begged for items in SP like its real money..... I can't help it.. too many things have been bothering me these days.. SP AND EOYs... I treasure you too much as a friend to even have negative feelings about you... I jus wanna be that... happy girl in your eyes... and up till now I can't believe... I cannot even point out a single thing you're negative in! Once again.. I'm sorry! I was the one who forced u into chocfudge... I'd better make sure you don't regret that.. T~T"
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-Riku... L2iku
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I'm sorry I throw my thoughts at you as and when I wish... although you won't get to read this.. I'll still have to express it out.. You have been a wonderful listener and comforter.. I cannot imagine SP life without you... you're reallllly important to me(I MEAN IT)... Scaring you have become a form of hurt to you... I feel very apologetic over my actions.. from now on.. I'll carry nothing but a smile in front of u ^^ I realised... you always smiled for me! And for that Thanks!
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-ZeroLeingod
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I guess.. the greed thing.. was my fault.. If i hadn't accepted him into the guild.. you wouldn't have been under the same negative category as me... you're not a greedy person.. I'm 100% sure I am never wrong! You're a nice person... you picture everyone to be a beautiful and happy person.. for that I'm really touched x.x" you're a wonderful guy.. If you were from Singapore.. who knows? I'd LOVE you? LOL(joke kk) alright.. once again.. I'm realllllyyyy sorry..!
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-iCez, GonG
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I dunno why I feel sorry for you... -.- maybe its cos of the Fire's bro thing... actually.. that day.. I was lying about laughing all the way x-x" what I detest most... is being called fat (not in the joking tone) repeatedly. I was frowning all the way.. that's why I kept quarrelling... Although.. u might think that's nth to say sorry about.. I still feel SO DAMN SORRY! i wasted your energy by making you type a quarrel with him... (not funny) sigh... you helped me alot for the past year liao... I'm oso damn happy you never once called me THAT BLOODY WORD.. -.- Being vulgar is affected by my brother de... For people who hate that part of me.. I'm sorry.. I grew up with a nice yet vulgar brother.. I can't do anything ^^ I believe in being myself ^^
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Riku told me... "You know I like you best right?" and at the most perfect timing.. Although I don't have a CRUSH on him... I feel so touched.. Actually I dropped a few tears when he said that.. he was already freaked out by the way I blurt every truth in his face.. yet... he keeps on smiling... T.T
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Sorry to everyone in ChocFudge. I don't deserve to be your leader. Even I know that....

ehh. so weird?

Hmm.. Dunno wussup with me xD haha.. suddenly wanna return back to KSP? I wasn't able to let go of the friends and fun I had there afterall... ahaa... however I think some part of me have changed xD Hmm..~~ i also dunno what XD I only know I have to smile for everyone.. or someone xD I just love treating the quarrel of gong n my bro as a free form of entertainment!! xD When I went to maple~~~ suddenly felt at a loss... :/ nobody's my friend there... Smiling only when my bro acts lame? xD

Oh ya! MY PHONE! MY BLOOODY BLOOODY PHONE!! it's like as good as junk? nuuu!! I wanna change to that PHONE !! tHaT *points* W580! ZOMFG!!! X_X" SOO PRETTY LARH!! yay!! my life is finallllyyy JOYOUS! I'm starting to work harder for exams now! so proud of myself :X! I'M GONNA WEIGH MYSELF AGAIN TMR! ZOMG!! I must be 60kg and below.. PLS PLS!!! T~T

Man.. I read gong's post.. its sooo damn SWEEET SIA!! xD although it ain't fer me :x ~~ xD i'm starting to love ChocFudge more and more!!!!!! :D I take back my words.. I THINK.. SP IS MY LIFE XD !!!!

new drawing!~!~!~!...

HOORAY HOORAY! Once again I WAS MOTIVATED TO DRAW DRAW DRAW!! suddenly got fascinated by baby dragons :X HEAD TOO SMALL LE LAA T.T" ahahah! i spent alot of effort on this one!!!

Yea Yea.. I'm gonna draw and draw and draw EVEN MORE!! I decided! when I'm good enough.. I'll sell my drawings :X HAHAHHAHAHAHAH! *ego*

Sigh.. so many things happened at school today. I found out today that Eugenie, Feei and Gayle cheated in the Bio test... ~_~" the whole class was like... errr... Well.. if either one of you read my blog.. I'll clearly state m stand :)) No matter how badly I'm gonna score, even if i'm BOUND to fail... cheating is something that will never cross my mind. I hope you guys will confess with honour n like muxin said "integrity" haha... If i were Wenli.. even though I threaten to tell the teacher.. I would never do it.. I believe chances have to be given :D Just don't do it again. Ms Lai will understand ^^ *hearts*

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-New Story-

Boy: Happy valentine's day!

Girl: hey.. why'd you give me a fake rose D:

Boy: Course it's pretty!

Girl: How insincere... :(

Boy: :O?

-Girl leaves and leaves the boy alone on valentine's day-

-2 days later, she receives a sms from the boy, it said...-

"I gave you a fake rose because no matter how beautiful and fragrant real roses are, they do not last... however... my love for you lasts forever... I thought a fake rose would make you happy... I'm sorry :("

-Girl breaks down-

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A flower so attractive- Yet, any real flower would wither one day-

Dunno wussup with me.. after seeing 2 ppl cry in class today.. I'm somehow reminded of my childhood scar... how foolish I was to nearly give up my life... -.-"

DUCK TOUR!

AS I PROMISED!! xDD I took some photos of today's duck tours! woo! MAN DID I ENJOY MYSELF! (except the part where the tour guide explained historical things about kampong glam and little india where I fell asleep on the bus, hehe ^^")

HUGGG MUMMY *hearts* x]] FOR PEOPLE WHO HAVE YET TO SEE HOW MY BROTHER LOOKS LIKE! THERE! THERE!! xDD (extreme right)

its damn shiok to be on the helium balloon!!! (one spark of fire can cause an explosion D:) bro next to me! dad extreme right :3

ME SOLO!! AHHH! @_@"

just got onto the ballooon!!!! mum doesn't look forward to it! SHE'S AFRAID OF HEIGHTS HAHA! XD bro's skinny right? TT~TT

whole family! I LOVE THEM ALL! cept the one on the extreme right D:

bottom view of the ENORMOUS balloon! WOW!

I LOVE U DADDY *hearts hearts* largest fountain in the world at suntec city! :P

Us in front of the balloon! getting ready to tale flight!!

UP UP AND AWAYYYYYY~~~ !!!! XD

being reaLLLYYY close to mommy *hearts*

HIPPO BUS!! xD

MAMA MERLION! hahaha! papa merlion is at SENTOSA!!

woots! caught a shot of a passing speed boat!

HAHA! prove that we took the boat bus :P -boat-on-wheels-

Singapore's national birds!! SO MANY CRANES! HAHA! (cold joke :X)

see!! the duck boat behind us getting into water! so cool right?

closer view of the boat-on-wheels!!! xP cool invention :x

EsPLANADE!!~

MAGNIFICANT ferris wheel!! who wanna ride with meee? x_x"

Lalala!! today was FREAKING enjoyable! although my bro kept saying "WAH LAO EH! go home better la... play comp better.. all this fking boring shit... kao.. waste my bloody time tmd.. ccb..." LMAO XD hahahahah!!! so fun listening to him complain!!!

-End, a new drawing coming up most probably tomorro!~ Look forward to it!-

drawings again! ^_^

Hahas! as I promised here are the drawings! ^~^" haha.. the left side of hawk's face abit weird.. I didn't do my shading likedat SERIOUS!! TT_TT"

Hawk & Cream - Love...Love..Love.. xD
hahas.. The hair was influenced by a character in Mai-Otome.. keke.. dun say i copy worh :X the rest are 100% original!!! x_X"

About the SP drawings of shamoo and xyhro.. haaa.. Might not do it anymore ^^ SP might just not be my game :]]

-surprisingly back to maple-

:D If you want to take drawings off my blog.. pls ask for my permission first! THX! :D

Uhh.. untitled xD

Hmms..! for those who wanna see my drawings IM SO SORRY! I swear I'll get it up SOON! soon! soon!!!! I've finish drawing Cream and Hawk.. although its seriously ugly >_> But i'm still proud of how well I drew cream :X Its a love drawing. By the request of Wym.. sorry haven't started Shamoo and Xyhro!! x_x"

Story time *hearts*
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Girl : I've never done anything for you at all...
Boy : Yes you have
Girl : I haven't.. why do you still cherish me so much?
Boy : You have...
Girl : Alright.. tell me.. what HAVE I ever done for you?
Boy : Hmm...
Girl : I'm sure there's absolutely nothing on your mind.. you're just saying it to cheer me up
aren't you?
Boy : Nope.
Girl : *Looks away* Alright, it's so obvious.
Boy : Hmm.. do you know how to write "suffer" in chinese? Its... "辛"
Girl : Ehh?
Boy : You have unknowingly.. used a pencil to add an extra stroke to "辛"
Girl : I see.. you're telling me a joke eh?
Boy : With one more stroke, you have transformed my "辛", into "幸".
Boy : You... are that stroke. You've done nothing material to me... But you have brought me joy... and truely made me understand... how important you are to me.
Girl : ...
Boy : *smiles widely*
Girl : *says between sobs* I can't believe... someone like you exist...
Boy : Alright, now you're convinced!
Girl : Am I dreaming?
Boy : Yup!
Girl : errr... ~_~"
-The boy rushes forward and kiss the girl-
Boy : are you dreaming?
Girl : You're so amazing.
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I thought of this under the influence of today's CHAMPS talk at LT1. :)

Emo lerh...

I thought I might share a story I thought of on my way home from grandma's house ^~^

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There were two childhood friends, their relationship was very close. Right now, the boy was sixteen and the girl was ten. Their ages were far apart. Everyday, the girl would run to the boy's house to play and stuff. The boy and the girl liked each other's company. They were the best of friends.

However, the boy was facing an extremely important exam that year. So, everyday, he would choose to ignore the girl and do his studying. The girl never cared much and kept as quiet as a mouse so that he could concentrate on his studies. The girl told him jokes from time to time because she thought it would help him destress. The boy just kept on ignoring and snapping at her. He even threw erasers at her when he's extremely vexed.

However, the girl never got irritated or angry, and never once, did she leave the boy alone.

One day, the boy got a phone call from his mother from overseas. It was a rare call, so that day, the boy was high in spirits, and he kept grinning the entire day. Of course, the girl was happy for him. She took the alarm clock in the boy's room and smashed it on the floor.

The boy looked at her, shocked. And he started scolding her again.

The girl kept quiet for awhile, and said "I'm sorry... I thought that by smashing the clock.. I could pause time... by pausing time.. it meant that I can always see that smile on your face... and when that happens... I don't want time to continue, I want you to stay like this forever!"

The boy looked at the girl. Lowered his head to express his apology, and hugged the girl.

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Being naive in her own, sweet way.

Reply to meimei's letter

Heh! meimei sorry orh~ was too addicted to KSP.. so I'll start my post now :3 *hearts*

YaaYss~! *hearts* I was so freaking proud of myself! xDD HAHAX!! i've finally regained my identity as a MOONIE! *hearts again* :D WOOOHOOO~!! I ranked up in mission mode.. it was so amazing.. with SS.. i got 444,000 points in one single mission level @_@" as in.. that was the highest i got to xP well~ i ranked... WEEES! :X

Haas... this was the group screenshot i took *hearts* haha! wym's expression is so.. well.. um.. EXPRESSION-LESS! :O *covers my ugly star rank* T_T"

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kkz... enuf of crap :X Now... gotta fulfill my promise *hearts*... heh meimei gave me a letter today when we met.. *information confidential* HAHA!! no lah... anyway.. here's my reply to your letter meimei :D

I'm glad you thank me for being there for you at times.. I thank you too.. for having changed so MUCH since the first time i met you.. I'm typing all these at rocket speed cos they're such truth! xD heh.. I hope u're coping well at school.. with ur frens and studies... anyway here's my belief! "Never let anyone affect your life, no one is worth you giving up your future NOR life for!"

And if you ever nid help.. I'LL-ALWAYS-BE-RIGHT-BEHIND-YOU! :]] I dunno if u'll trust me BUT.. i AM a GOOD councilor HAHA!! :X *ego liao ego liao!!* I'm glad you love me as ur jie.. u're my precious meimei too~ i hope we cn hang out together more often ^_^~ lets watch another movie next time kk? ^^"

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My baby.. darling.. I hope you can forgive me.. if I've done anything wrong today... (seriously)

Short n sweet~ SP

Heh.. I make this entry short and sweet with lotsa pics! x]]

Haa.. yesterday I tink... I bought my dream staff! LOLS!! MTD + HGF!! woots! ^~^ I din do it on my own of cuz! there's one special person i wud like to thank.. it's non other then.. WYM!!! XD hahaha! she's so nice.. she lent me 30,000,000 code!(muz type out all e zeros!) The staff costed 85,000,000, which was rather cheap for such high gold force!! @_@" Anyway.. my 54,000,000 code became 4,000,000 code T_T SOB! I'll return ur code ASAP wym! :D

Here's the beautiful staff! *~* ADMIRE ZEH BEAUTY! WOOTS! :D

Haahs.. trapping wym was quite fun? x_X" HAAHA!! X_X was jus joking!! dun take it seriously wym! x_o" jus found the screenie cute x3

Found two new korean buddies YTD too! one of them named DarkTonight or smth.. she knows english! and she's my age! haaah! i was shocked to know koreans as young as her know english!! x3

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John, a nine year old boy wanted to go out with his friends. His mother constantly reminded him, "Before you cross the road, look left and right, and left again! remember John!" John kept his mother's words in his heart, never did he once forget. He walked out, getting ready to cross the road, he looked left and right, and left again, like his mother told him to. After being sure that there were no cars around, he took his first step and began crossing the road. Suddenly, a car turns about a corner and crashes right into John. It was reported on the news that John died that day. His mother was devastated.

~Moral~

Why are accidents called accidents? If accidents could be prevented just by taking more precautions. Don't you think the word "accident" doesn't need to exist? When something is caused by an accident, no one can be blamed for it.

First Poem

Haahs... It's already 2nd August xD haa.. I'm staying up really late today to complete an assignment. So while doing so.. I decided to write.. something like a poem.. to express my thoughts ba? Train literature skills haaa... x]

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Entitled : Waking Up

I touched the cotton blankets,
yet I couldn't go to sleep.
I stayed awake and began to think,
why have I not gone to sleep?

I had a dream the day before,
it was a bittersweet dream.
I woke up just to realise,
I couldn't help but scream.

On a crusty piece of toast,
I spread a layer of butter.
On a soft and tender one,
I spread something so very sour.

I touched the cotton blankets,
wondering if I could sleep.
to forget the sweet yet sour
midnight bittersweet dream.
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*hint* All of my poems have meanings behind it. :) Ask me if you want to know what, but I will not tell certain people. ^^