i love xy dear!

When I was completely lost and a sudden lack of self-confidence in my tests... only one person was there for me... When I completely gave up all hope to get what I want... only one person succeeded in motivating me with her priceless support and encouragement.. She's non other than MY BESTEST FRIEND THAT GOD GAVE TO ME.. See Xinyi.

I love her so much... she's a dream come true.. X_X I never expected myself to be able to stand up again and tell myself i can do it once more. She gave me confidence and new hope. She's really an angel given to me by god.. I must have done something wonderful in my past life... For the sake of getting into the same university with her, I have to work my ass in and out, mug like shit! I have to spend my university years with her.. just thinking there is 4 more years till that day.. my heart breaks and memories of our separation re-appear in my mind X_X

Today had a meaningful convo with her! :) I love you gal! Promise we're be best friends forever! :D

I'm tired of this, shut up

Hais.. where are you when I need you most... I'm dying of boredom lah k... hurry talk to me! Nowadays I'm getting really sick of SOMEBODY who keeps on asking me whats tested whats tested.. LIKE HELL I'LL KNOW IF YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW YOURSELF. I suppose u noe who u are.. always ask everyone else for smth u presume only you don't know.

I know you strive to do better than others, but cud U QUIT DOING IT?! IM GETTING SO SICK OF IT OK. Everytime ask us to let you copy notes, everytime tell me I'm treating you so unfairly frm my other frens... everytime U GIVE ME DAT DARN FRAGILE FACE OF URS.. one of these days you will force me to ignore u completely. The problem lies with urself, I'm not unreasonable, I'm not avoiding you becus of anyting else but ur own personal attitude. Realise it soon man.. or one of these days it will be more than I CAN TAKE!

I hope all my frens can do well in this IP assessment, everyone but you. You try so hard to make sure you knew what others knew and even more, what's your problem? Can't accept the fact that there are ppl out there smarter than you? Face reality man, you're not the best, I will make sure you're worse off than me. If you ever read this and can't tell that I'm talking about you, then you're hopeless. Go to hell. Stop this shit or I'm really gonna go berserk and show you a side of me not even my family has witnessed before.

Darn thing. Quit drivin' me bong bongz... get outta my life if you refuse to change.

another april post!

Yawn~ I'm typing this blog entry while being half asleep.. slept at 12am ytd.. it's no wonder i'm so lethargic ryt nw.. x_x I juz realised how well me and Ailing could get along.. we share common interests.. common likes and dislikes.. etc. She's a really gud and rare fren I guess.. a fren that I might have been searching for all this while..

Really dono what's gotten into me today and yesterday... He talked to me yesterday.. x_X It's really a rare thing... I don't suppose it means anything else though.. I shouldn't even think about it.. my wild thoughts are just desires that won't ever come true... He told me he's just warning dunman and RV students to drop IP.. but.. I seriously thought he was talking to me probably becuz we long time no chat.. so damit sad then.. =/

I shouldn't think about those "things" huh? exams are ard the corner.. gotta study hard.. but can't believe he wants to tutor me during june holidays.. we never met before.. so it's kinda.. awkward? and I hate tuition.. or maybe all he said means smth else? or at least I hope they do.. lols.. nvm...

Lydia, if u do read my blog... then I must say this.. Pls don't call me dumb girl like what u did in school today during math lesson. I was very angry.. that's why my tone in sms was that way. zzz... Pls hor.. Pls...

Getting rly rly rly sleepy now.. jie's not online to talk to me.. so I guess i'll turn in early today... gdnite people~!

so long nvr blog liao~

Hahas... so long nvr post le~ finally april xD end of tis month nid to take mid years liao.. wish me gd luck! about a month and a half from now.. I'll be going to UK hahahs xD cnt wait to go there lols xD tmr going out with xinyi dear dear lo! finally ryt ryt? oso dam excited.. cn c her fren (audition pro) PLAY AUDITION AT PC BUNK! LAWLS! how cool! xD

i'm like so dam freak over audition de lor! xDD freak freak freak! so addictive =x Just passed napha test! cant say was a breeze.. can't believe i could do 7 inclined de k! x.x pro pro IM SOO PRO! LOL! kiddin~! can't wait for tmr sia~ can't wait can't wait~ woohoo~ cn c one of my dear's frens and see her play audition woot woots =x too over-reacted huh? xD

my maths test got 22/30... seh laa.. 1 mark till 23.. 23 = A1.. i'm sooo depressed.. and the stupid act-stupid dude in my class got full marks! ahhh! bu fu qi maaa!!! so gd laa.. he so smart.. me leh.. so dumb T_T but lydia n ailing got 15 each.. I feel sad laa.. I wan my frens to score same or better than me.. that's what makes me really happy x.x score well together n stuff... haix...

anyways.. blogged for april~ xD gtg zz liao.. really tired after a long day x.x gdnite peeps!

tmr no cca!

Weeee~! I so happy siaa.. tmr no cca! hehee! just got the news frm lee hui, my sub-co. haha... I wasn't expecting a free no-cca day tmr~ but this news made me very very very happy! Now I have 3 days off this week free... wooots!! I'll try to blog a lil more often cuz now alot wonderful things happen to me~

Todae I wanted to pon swimming class.. gave excuse tt I got tuition at home.. haizz.. guess it din work? what do I expect though... todae have menses can't even swim.. wasted a session there doing nth.. dam u teacher siaaa!! x.x I wanted chng to thurs cos i thought swimming test compulsory... den dowan skip any practice lessons. But I just knew it wasn't compulsory.. I mean plz la.. I already passed Survival course 2 which is equivalent to silver for this course. Wan me retake bronze? no way man! I'd rather give tis test a miss.. waste my precious 8 bucks! zzz

Juz had a meaningful talk with my best cca buddy, Phyllis! she's the nicest person man!! yea babehhh xD muahahas... Girl guides say we're slack when obviously they're more slack than us laahh! unfair! I dam bua song siaa! They should consider how others might feel after their so called "casual" comment~! Firstly, they have no right. Secondly, it's basic respect among UGs not to bad-mouth other UGs. guess girl guides ain't educated that way!

Haha.. gotta go drink my expensive dono what-ever drink! xD hehe.. cheerful lil naive girl signing off! cya again soon! ^^

wussup wussup?

hmm.. I haven't been posting for quite a long time alreadi huh? Well.. I just got back from a really busy camp and been busy with school assignments and projects as well.. xD blehh.. anyways.. the camp was really tough and I could only manage 2 and a half hrs of sleep in total in the 2 nights.. sad case ryt? x.x

this is indeed a really tough camp for me.. if I were to say it myself! I'm starting to miss my platoon mates and such... cos we had so much fun and we worked so often together! It had been really meaningful for all of us. I juz hope the year one(s) won't hate SJAB because of the level of toughness of the camp x.x ehhee.. This is the first time i went for camp.. last yr din go due to a sudden outbreak of fever. keke xD

We were like running and training our muscles all the time.. and I really mean every single second kinda-thing.. x.x its really damn tough lah... now my muscles are hardening due to the training we were all given haha...

Anyway.. My eyelids are about to shut.. gotta go catch sum sleep.. haha I shall stop here then xD Gdnite guys~! Stay healthy and be urself all the time~! tata~!

xinyi's birthdae

hehe.. now i'm posting pretty early huh? I just wanna post to say tt.. I've decided to put down many things and carry on with my studies and stuff.. I mean like.. many things that are pulling me down frm my actual life.. xD I want to try to let all of them go! I want to be free and happy like I WAS! =))

I sound abit weird huh? It so happens I'm all drawn to the game called auditionSEA LOLS! so maybe the music and skill required in there given me my bright side back? heh~ It's a really fun game.. I now know alot more new songs through audition.. and they're all mostly beautiful songs! some jap.. some eng.. some chi! its just great!

Today at school.. Mr.chia gave us each 2 chupa chups lolipops xD but me ailing and Lydia these three notti ppl go and snatch more.. i managed snatch 5 in total.. ailing n lydia had 9 and 7 respectively LOL..! If mr chia goes bankrupt we're sure to blame~ xD he's a really fantastic teacher i guess.. teacher's dae and his birthdae im 100% SURE to give him presents! a BIG HUGGY TEDDY BEAR!!! when u gona hab ur first kid mr chia? LOL xDD the teddy bear can be passed down to ur kids like an ancestrial item? LOL man I am so thick-skinned yet honoured =x

We're really dam lucky to hav him as a form teacher~ he always never fails to add a sense of humour to his lessons, sorta like me? haha! xD naa.. juz tt I look so much NICER den him! LOL I'm kinda kidding!! warhaha

He's really more of our generation type of teacher xDD I LOVE YOU MR CHIA!! ( don't get the wrong idea lol!! ) suo wei.. yi ri wei shi, zhong shen wei fu! ahhaha! my chinese standard getting better huh? xD kk guess its the end! tata!

so long nvr post liao~

Heh.. it's been a month and a day since I last posted? xDD I'm finally back to post some more crap lols.. although these few days haven't been good for me.. apparently.. I nvr fail to lose my bright side lols...

Vul's and Jie's birthdaes are juz over.. following up is mine HAHA! I wonder what present I would receive? I will be very happy even if it's juz a simple "happy birthdae" wish keke ^^ I'm glad jie managed to celebrate her birthdae, since it's like rarely that she ever does... and vul.. sadly no one celebrates with him de, wish I could have done smth about it... lol. I have a feeling my birthday tis year is gona b a fantastic one!

Too bad my mum refuses to get me a new fone. soB. I waz looking forward to one T-T awww.. mommy~~ T-T LOL! I noe sweet talking won't work! blehh!! dumb mum T-T LOL!! JUST KIDDING!!!

and these few days.. I realised how much chien jiejie care about me ... regretted saying all those about u der le jiejie!! I feel very comfortable and extremely welcomed while chattin' with her.. it's as if her presence mean alot to me... I guess fire mei doesn't read my blog anymore de? she's a cute girl I guess.. but sometimes abit too chatty! LOL! might b good and bad lol...

I ain't myself anymore I realise.. I've changed due to some reason... but I will still maintain this qian da smile =)) I won't want my better self to ever fade away.. never ever...

~__~

Woah, it's been 1 months since i last posted! amazing huh? xD hahax. It's been fun the past 2 months of holidays, fire mei joined maple with me... we had a great time, and snow jie.. time to part? sad!! nvm we will meet again during the holidays!

Had an enjoyable time trying to "jio" sec ones into sjab xD very fun la! we were like crowding around one or two sec one, and talking alot crap to them about sjab and alot BAD thing about other UG, we should not be doing that i know, but huu cares?? xDD completely corner the sec ones lor. i remember i was freaked out by the UG village.. by the snrs who keep corner u and tok non stop! xD hahax!!!

Haiz, third day of school tio sunburn liao.. dam cham de la, ur skin burns the whole day, u feel lethargic even after 10 hours of sleep... all cuz of the sec ones laa!! all go under the sun, make us nid to go out and jio them!! hmpH!!~! 10 hours continuous under the sun and summore walk run do foot drills.. u say nerh? will die anot? DUH!!! T.T

That was the longest CCA session i ever had lo.. sec 1 cca trails have been pretty meaningful and fun for me.. altho tio scolded by snrs.. they dam cute.. say they love us even though we don't know!! xD hahaha~ i noe la, all the snrs doing for us is for our own good! Guys! let's all for one and one for all from now~!! ^^ musn't let our snrs down!

P.S. I'm rather happy this few weeks that passed. and again, i'm sorry for not posting for so damn long orediie~~ xD I'm sure KT doesn't noe bout this blog so i can backstabb him all i want!! LOL! KT!! u hum supp kia!!!! whole daee oni noe how to tink and talk sick!!! lucky u lost the bet!! u cnt jio me liao!! HENGG ARH!! XP si KT, wan stead find another ba, u nort my type XP... LaLaLa~! don heartbroken orh! i won't hug u de orh!! lolol =P okay la.. i siao liao, wo hai shi zui ai meimei and jiejiee lerhh~!! <3<3

back frm taiwan

Heyy yoyoyo!! I'm back from taiwan xD hahahax!!! plane landed in singapore at 6.30pm yesterday hahas.. play till lethargic liao x.x still worth laa.. i added my taiwan tour guide onto msn.. super swt right? xD nid talk in chinese to her liao.. dam sian.. hate typing chinese xD But still worth. she's the best tour guide i've come accross.. a kid in the same group as me even cried when we had to say goodbye to her .. Its always hard to say goodBye~... saddx... lucky we still can keep in contact through msn .. funny thing is.. she made a english name for herself.. Hope lol xD weird name huh? still say look at her will have alot of hope... hahah rofl! had a fun time there! with such a fun tour guide.. it makes it double fun XD

come back liao.. nid concentrate on hmwork nia ler.. its strange i still have time to blog =X hahax... anyways.. to all sp-ers who well.. read my blog.. i juz wanna say gudbye... haiz.. sp's getting meaningless for me.. cuz everyone closest to me seems really far and unknown to me liao... don wanna talk about it liao... juz hope if u guys still play sp... enjoy urself ba ^^ i will disband guild last day of holidays... here's wishing everyone a pleasant game journey and have fun sp-ing ^^ i've returned to play back maple.. i noe this game sukz to many.. but at least over there.. i've got QQ kor and snow jie... ppl whom i've met like 2 years ago... now we're reunited.. so i'm playing back maple i guess ^^ frens are most important to me... and they ain't normal virtual frens.. they r my best virtual frens! ^^ QQ's nice to bully and snow jie's personality is juz like mine! and she never come to me with her problems.. i go to her with mine =X overall.. she's a very nice jie ~~

Nida do hmwork.. Byez ^^